TangGuo

RE: a sudden urge

2011-05-19T17:13:00.002+08:00

It has been a long since the last time I've last posted..
It was suppose to be..
A new year.. A new beginning.. A new hope...
However, it has been halfway through into the year..
Many things have happen.. good and bad..
It makes me wonder at times.. what actually is good and what is bad..
What is right and what's wrong..

In life.. we are always faced with lots of crossroad which we have to choose..
The so called right path to take.. but what is really right??
our perception? or how others perceive us?
for example; i could say and think that what i did was right..
but on the other hand.. someone else might think that i am wrong..
So.. at the end of the day.. who is right? who should i follow? what should i do?
so many questions.. is there ever a definite answer?
i seriously doubt it..

Come to think of it..
No one is perfect..
Everyone makes mistakes..
It depends on whether one stays being always wrong
or one would repent on the wrong they did..

People often say..
Follow your heart..
Follow your soul..
Follow you guts..
But.. what if.. they are leading you to another mistake?
What if.. that is not the right path to take?

Life is just so unpredictable..
You can never guess what will happen at the next moment...
You can never know who you are gonna meet..
At times.. things just come and go..
In a split second, all would change..
And we could only keep our fingers cross and hope for the best..

why do we always want things..
that we know doesn't belong to us from the start?
why did we yearn for things that are always so hard to get..
Why in the hell do we torture ourselves with the misery that we know would come by..
why did we jump into the pit hole that we already saw miles away..

What i can say now is..
Love makes us do silly things..

Re: A sad sad day..

2010-01-25T20:21:00.002+08:00

It's been a long and tiring day..
though i did not go to school but still i did my work at home..

My heart hurts..
Like someone is gripping it hard..
Painfully hard..
Your words are like sharp knives..
Pierce through my heart..
I feel the pain..

i dunno what more to say..
i'm tired..

Re: A new year.. a new beginning..

2010-01-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

Happy new year..
been a long time since u have blog..
life have been real busy..
school.. work.. family.. boyfriend..
so many many things yet so little time..

A new year..
A new beginning..
New hope..

I hope that this year would be a great year..
Graduating soon..
Hope to get better results..
Hope to widen my circle of friends..
Hope to have more time to spend with my family and bf..
Hope to maybe find a part time job so that i have money..
Hope to save up..
Hope to be a better person..
Hope to not flare up easily..
there is so many things that i hope for and i will try my best effort to fulfilled it..

Been really lazy lately..
dont have da drive to do my work..
just feel like lazing around..
NO! i got to settle down..
i got to start doing my work..
it's final already..
it's now or never..
i will do my best..
i promise!

last year was fruitful..
went to bangkok in the mid with my parents and bf..
then went cruise with my family..
then went to hong kong with my bf and his aunts..
spent quite alot of money..
sigh.. kinda broke now..
at times how i wish money grow on trees..
so we can just be gardeners..
grow them with love and care..
and therefore i will have money!
hahahz.. dreaming~

hmz.. i am so bored now..
dear is not around..
went gossiping with his mates..
boring!
i am missing him..
but.. oh yahz..
my other new year resolution is..
not to be too hard on him..
have to try not to be paranoid..

Lastly.. i hope that our love is strong for whatever that is coming for us in 2010..
i love you dear..
what have happen in the past is already behind us..
we should treasure each other now and always..
hope that our love will grow stronger..

Love Candida

Re: A bad feeling..

2009-09-01T20:52:00.002+08:00

i am not sure why am i feeling this way.. there seems to be a hurting feeling somewhere.. a certain pain that i cannot identify.. life seems to always make fun of us.. that we hope for will never come.. but once the situation change and u kinda detest it, it will come knocking on your door..

I used to hate you not going out.. always staying at home.. not being able to accompany me.. but now.. why does things seems to be different?? why am i feeling the other way round.. i don't want you to always stay out late.. i don't like it when you go out with others to the wee hours.. i don't want to always call you and you not answer.. i hate those feelings.. i know that and understand about those things that u say to me.. and i do understand that you seems to be his only few friends in singapore.. but.. at times.. i just can't take it.. for christ sake.. u are my bf.. and i need you more than anyone else.. but at times, the feeling that you gave me.. it seems like i am just anyone..

i need you.. there are already so much struggle in life and yet.. i feel all alone at times.. i feel empty.. i feel the pain..

i am wondering.. hoping.. that you will be home later like what you said.. and not somewhere else..

all i can now is that we have been thru so much to be together.. i do treasure.. i love you.. i don't want to quarrel.. to argue.. i'm sorry if i did said anything wrong.. but i hope you know how i feel too.. ("v")

Love Candy

Re: Busy.. Getting busier..

2009-07-15T16:41:00.005+08:00

hmz.. been like so busy lately.. school.. school and school.. there are like only one project and a furniture design competition which i am still not sure whether i should participate.. currently doing ECO design.. OMG! damn.. it's hard.. firstly.. i am not that kind of "ECO" person.. i mean.. we as designer are people who uses tons and tons of paper.. we are the culprit who uses so much electricity powering our computers and laptops to render images.. who are we to talk about ECO.. lolz.. but nevertheless, it's a project.. an assignment.. a must to do..

been cracking my brain hard and out, killing all my brain cells to come out with ideas and concept.. it seems to really take ages.. many often perceive that ECO means solar panel.. using the sun's energy and etc.. but that is not all.. and moreover, our "brief" is kind of restricted to having nothing to do with water (hydro), solar (sun), wind (turbine), heat, kinetic and etc.. worse still, we are advised not to do things such as toilet sink.. basin or things such as craft based product.. Can you imagine it? it's real tough! i have like absolutely no idea what to do.. feel stress.. no ideas seems to be generating.. and my brain cells are dying at a super fast rate..
there's design clinic today.. gotta pin all my crappy design on the "window" for "sharing". Sigh.. i drew quite a few things though.. but however, i find that none is strong and most are real crap.. lolz.. anyway, presented and lecturers are like discussing each and everyone of our concept.. and i am in the same room now typing this.. hahaz.. scare! i was real nervous just now during the presentation.. guess kinda rusty.. not been like presenting for quite a long time.. i guess it's like back to square one.. gotta try hard again!

hmz.. i miss my dear.. he's been working like 1pm-10pm this week.. so never really talk much to him.. cos by the time he reached home and bathe, i am feeling like so so tired.. so we kinda like just talk for awhile.. but it's okiez.. friday coming soon.. and i am able to see him again! (^_^) anyway, he has been real nice.. kinda helping me think hard for ideas.. though he's not really good at it but i am real touched! thanks dear.. you've been real nice.. muackz.. i really appreciate your help.. as time and again you did help me spark that idea.. lolz..
i am so so tired! i'm like missing my dear.. my brain cells are dying.. i've got no life.. there is no "strong" concept for my ECO project.. oh man.. how?? how am i gonna survive?

anyway, i've got some pics taken some time ago to upload.. went to eat with dear and bro at bugis.. not sure what the name of the shop.. but it's selling ramian.. nice nice..

sigh.. gotta go now.. tired.. lazy to continue typing.. FOOD! yippie...

Love Candida

Re: Happy birthday Mummy!

2009-07-02T23:21:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday Mummy..

Went to New York New York to celebrate mummy's birthday.. Yippiee..

Meat Platter for 2

Seafood Platter for 2

Beef for 2 ( ordered 2 of this...)

Hahaz.. a long string of food!!!
PRESENT OPENING TIME!!!!

My present to mummy..

Wesley present.. Slimming cream.. lolz. ( look at mummy's expression..)

Chatlton present.. flowers!!!

Walton heart to mummy..

Woo.. look.. what's behind u..

Birthday Cake plus carol singer.. hahaz!!!

Clap clap.. Sing sing..

Mummy so happy!!! (Awww...)

Make a wish and blow ya candle..

Cake cutting..

Hazelnut chocolate cake.. from Prima Deli.. Specially requested from mummy.. cos it's not too sweet.. kekekz..

Daddy & Mummy.. ( so sweet..)

All da kids plus tita!!!

Charlton attacking his coffee float.. (so big mug.. later tonight cannot sleep..)

Me and Wesley..

Wesley scary face!!!

hmz.. i think i shall stop blogging here.. cos blogger seems to be a little lag today.. maybe will upload more tml.. (^_^) lastly.. happy birthday mum once again!!!

Love Candida

Re: I dunno why am i feeling like this..

2009-07-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

a heart breaking feeling.. i don't know why am i feeling this way.. i believe what u told me.. i really do.. i know it's just some innocent drinking with ya boss and colleagues.. but.. i just don't feel good.. i dislike it.. maybe.. i just don't trust myself.. maybe i just don't have the belief in myself.. i know that at times my short tempered might be hard on you too.. like earlier on you suddenly told me that ya gonna go Clark Quey with ya boss and all to drink and i kinda flare a little.. sigh.. i am not disapproving you to go.. it's just like i said.. i am not sure of myself.. i am not sure where do i really stand.. what i really am..

dear.. i know that you and i have kinda gone through quite alot.. from the past till now.. at times.. i am also afraid that the past might come back into the present or even the future to haunt the relationship.. there are some feelings deep within that words can never be able to express.. there are unknown fears around that you would know about until you felt them..

i am now confused.. not sure what the heck i am typing about.. maybe i am just babbling.. wanting to vent that frustrated on something..

i hope you enjoy your night out.. take care.. i miss you..

Love Candida

Re: Finally it's over.. or is it not?

2009-06-30T23:15:00.010+08:00

Attachment is finally over.. OMG!!! Thankfully.. everything kinda went well and great.. anyway.. i am having my one week break.. kinda thankful to H1N1 i guess.. sure was tired.. slept pass 1pm everyday.. *such a good life* hahaz.. how i wish it will never end..

Went to catch Transformer with Alvin dear yesterday evening at Jurong Point.. Man!! it was cool.. those machines!!! totally awesome.. A must watch.. i rate it 4/5 star..

hmz.. went to eat Swensen after the movie.. yippie.. thought it was closing.. cos was like kinda late.. but luckily.. not..

Calamari Rings.. Yummy.. Ate some before i remember to take pictures!!! hahaz..

My Salmon Pesto.. Healthy..
The salmon was a little dry though..
my dear's Black Pepper Seafood Pasta.. EEE...

Anyway, the salmon was so so.. a little too dry so the meat is a little tough.. but however.. my dear's pasta is EXTREMELY NOT nice at all.. bcos firstly.. he say that is was watery.. the sauce is not thick.. i tried the fish and it was kinda like rock hard.. hahahz.. and lastly.. i do not like black pepper.. yucks!!! honestly.. i find that eating black pepper food.. is just like eating only the back pepper.. it cover the taste of the food.. yucky~ but my dear seems to like it alot.. *wonder* hahaz.. anyway, we did order a brownie ice cream to share.. however.. i did not take a picture of it.. bcos it was melting by the time i finish my main course.. hmz.. i wonder.. how dumb can some of the people be.. bcos it was time for the last order.. therefore we kinda order the ice-cream.. but we are like just a few minutes into our main course.. smart people would have the brains to know that dessert is to be served later.. and not while the customer is having the main course.. and guess what.. the smart alec waitress serve us dessert when we are eating out main course.. how stupid can she get.. WTF... totally disappointed with them.. guess i am not gonna eat Swensen at Jurong point anymore..

Oh.. this happen some time ago.. but i got no time to blog.. so here.. i am gonna upload the pictures.. hahahaz.. lazy me! Went to Dear office some weeks back after work.. pei him.. cos he work from 1pm-10pm.. and guess what.. he bought me flowers.. awww.. sweet right?? NAHZ!!! hahaz.. cos he kinda do something wrong.. that's why.. bleah.. =p anyway.. thank u.. i love the flower.. and pinkcess as well.. kekekz...

Favourite.. SunFlower..

Pinkcess

Shhh.. People taking exam.. lolz..

Hmz.. ending my blog here.. hahahaz.. Cos dear call le.. he ask me.. " can i play game while u blog.." hahahz.. bleah.. cannot.. so now.. i must stop blogging and talk to you therefore u cannot play game.. yippiee.. i am so so smart.. (^_^) nahz.. just kidding..

Will update again soon when i am not so so lazy.. *beat my butt...* woo..

Love Candida

Re: Sadz..

2009-05-29T09:28:00.003+08:00

so sad.. not going to Malaysia today.. cos i think the person who is gonna drive us in is not free.. Oh man.. thought finally got something other than Rhino to do.. Sigh.. guess today will be another boring and sucky day..

*Sulky Face*

hahahz.. guess i am kinda too bored! but it's so so cute!

Love Candida

Re: Office

2009-05-28T17:01:00.010+08:00

hmz. took these pictures of my office long time ago.. kinda lazy to post it up.. but since i am quite free today, here goes..

office taken from inside out to reception area

waiting area.. look comfy right?

severy bar?

coffee, tea or wine sir?

outside one of the meeting room..

just before u walk into da working place..

my workstation!

see.. got so much things to do.. =( mock ups.. hahahz!

mervin's table..

smoking area.. nice right..

door to the smoke "heaven"..

got bench for them to sit some more..

pantry!

view from the pantry window..

coffee machine and microwave.. saviour!

dark way to the toilet!

so there.. my office.. hmz.. i've been working here like for almost 2 months already.. 1 more to go.. and i will be back in school again.. i think working here is alright.. just that the place is a little off.. and the things that i do is a little irrelevant to what i study in school.. but anyway, who's isn't.. most of my classmates complain too.. it's okiez anyway.. we still gotta pray and thank god we got a job.. (^_^)

i am sitting here.. waiting for work to end.. hahahaz.. today is another slacking day!.. so bored! come on.. give me some work to do..

Love Candida..

Re: More Pics

2009-05-20T08:42:00.007+08:00

hmz.. went to Chinatown with Alvin for dinner the other day.. Ate at this restaurant.. Erm.. i kinda forgot it's name.. anway.. the food there was like so so.. edible but not real fantastic.. anyway, It's all Alvin's fault.. he say the food there was nice especially the dim sum.. but.. sigh..

Old Cucumber Soup

Sambal Kang Kong! My Favourite..

I forgot the name of this dish.. is something like oyster sauce fish or something..

Anyway, the soup was kinda tasteless.. the Kang Kong is not hot enough according to Alvin.. the fish was quite alright though the meat was not as smooth.. We also have Siew Mai.. It was BIG.. but the taste is average.. nothing special.. i wouldn't recommend my freinds to go there to eat.. or i should say.. i am not going back to that restaurant to eat.. and oh.. did i mention, the service there was bad too.. the waiters were like all "deaf and blind".. and they were also kinda rude.. they kind of wanna keep the plates before both os us have finish eating.. OMG..

Rating: 1.5/5

I forgot the name of the restaurant.. but it is located in Chintown where you can find those tourist attraction street food.. i think is around Sims Street.. anyway, the restaurant is situated at the two storey refurbished old house.. should be able to spot when nearby as you can see they hung somre red lanterns on the second floor..

After dinner.. was actually heading to party world to sing k.. however.. it is fully booked! and the earlierst time slot was 11pm.. OMG!!! i think it was only like 8 plus going to 9.. so we kinda ditch that idea.. so after that we took a train.. and decided to stop at Jurong Point.. (bcos it is nearer to Alvin's house..=p) kinda walk around and suddenly, Alvin say.. "i wanna eat Swensen".. hahahz.. then i asked him.. " haven't close?" then we walk nearer to enquire.. they were like closing.. and we asked one of the waiter.. he say they are close.. then Alvin insisted that he wanna eat.. lolz.. so we told the person that we are only eating dessert and not gonna order the main course.. so he agree.. and Weeeee... we are in Swensen ordering our ice cream..

this is my ice cream.. and i forgot the name of it.. =( something with chocolate.. banana.. strawberry fudge and vanila ice cream! * my brother say he can see ya tummy.. so fat!*

This belongs to Alvin..

look at the way he DRINK the ice cream.. hahahz! so greedy!

anyway, he was hurried by me to finish his ice cream.. cos they are like really closing and we seems to be the only few soul left lingering there.. sigh.. he eat so slow.. like tortoise.. lolz.. now i finally find someone who eat slower than me.. kekekez..

hmz.. that's all for now.. i find that my blog seems to be more and more about food.. hahahaz.. maybe i'll convert it into a food blog.. woo!!!

Love Candida..

Re: Feelings

2009-05-19T14:55:00.002+08:00

I am so tired now.. Worn down by the past events.. While i was away in Kl for the weekend, something kinda happen and i realized it when i came back to Singapore.. I am not gonna say what exactly happen.. and the person who is also a part of the incident should know what i am refering to..

Anyway, i am not sure of what to say.. a cloud of anger and disappoint still stir around me.. i am not sure how should i face you now and vice versa.. i am not blaming that it is totally you fault.. like i have said to you earlier.. maybe it is me who think naive that there is trust and respect threfore you would not do it.. but guess i was wrong.. curiousity always kills the cat.. and in this situation, you are left hanging there waiting when to die.. or maybe u should just reach for the string and cut it so that you wouldn't be dangling there..

i do admit that these few years, i have been drifting in and out of your life.. but at times, do you seriously think that i want it to happen? u say u wanna share whatever i was going through but on the other hand, do you truly understand? if you do not then wouldn't there be more frustration and misunderstanding?

i am really lost for words now.. it hardly happens..

lastly before i stop blogging here i wanna let you know that i was so angry because it is not the first time such a thing happen.. u know how pissed i was before and i am even more piss now.. i don't like people poking their nose into my business.. if you truly wanna know anything, ask.. is it that hard? we should laern from our mistakes and therefore it is why we learn history.. but i guess this time, you did not remember the lesson that was taught before..

i truly am not sure how long would it take me to stop being mad at you this time because i initially believed u.. i am sorry too for being so grouchy the past few days.. i don't know what to say now.. speechless..

i am lost and i cannot find my way..
blinded by darkness, anger and frustration,
i threw my guiding stick away ..
it guided me wrongly and therefore i was met with obstacles..
life never seems to be smooth sailing..
i then thought.. will i ever getmy guidence back?
it didn't matter now..
bcos with or without it, i am already lost..
if it truly belongs to me, it will eventually comes back..
to the rightful owner..
now i need to find the way out of the darkness alone..
i need to be strong..
i will survive..

Love Candida

Re: KL Trip!

2009-05-19T08:56:00.050+08:00

Hmz.. Went to KL with my parents.. was fun but tiring.. hahahaz.. kept on sleeping.. not sure why am i so tired.. guess must be working too hard.. =p So.. now it is time to relax!!!

we ate lunch at KL.. " Long Ji" nearby our hotel, Radius International!

honeydew fruit juice..

view from my room window~ nice?

wash basin!

Bath area in the room~

sneaky pic.. kekekz.. shhh.. she didn't know that i took that.. =p

LRT track! advertisement..

see the dramatic different between the old blocks infront and the new ones behind..

sobb sobb.. we are lost.. on the way to PJ to eat the famous "Fatty Crab"

do they actually need 2 people to clear the trash.. hmz...

So cute! lolz.. *pose*

Boring! at the Petrol Kiosk.. pumping petrol.. lolz..

is this Singapore or Malaysia?

nahz.. Malaysia.. see the toll station~

unique criss-cross design..

from far, this building looks like it reaches to the sky.. into the clouds..

cool..

Perspective..

Actually KL high rise buling are just as nice and awesome as those in Singapore CBD area..

Petaling jaya city!

Self painted blocks.. see the rojak of different.. daddy say the people paint the block on their own.. therefore so many preference of colour..

We finally reached the "fatty Crab" restaurant! hahahz.. asked quite a number of Pretorl kiosks as well as went round and round.. OMG! the signages there is so messy.. think the designer need to go for infographics lesson.. hahahaz.. we got lost bcos of all the signage and da stupid GPS.. lolz.. in the end, we kinda manage fine without depending so much on them.. lolz..

My Daddy & Mummy.. *smile*

Me! Waiting for my food to come.. hungry hungry~

chicken wings!!! my favourite~

fried rice..

Satay!

another kind of special chilli crab.. hmmz.... unique!

yummy! it is finger licking good!

All gone!

my possession.. and i am officially broke now.. lolz..

Slipper.. Got scolded buying this.. Cos i have tons of slippers at home.. lolz.. but i love it~

Bought this for Mama.. and she loves it.. Yippie!

LV.. Mummy say can take when she do marketing.. Lolz..

Lappie bag.. My "Ping Guo" finally have a home!

Another Coach.. Hahahaz.. Can't wait to bring them out..

Hahaz.. this comes free! together with the one below..

I wanna bring this to work next week! Wee..

Wallet! Got a hard time bargaining for it.. Hahaz!

My Coach Keychain.. PinkY~

Toast Toast and more toast!

American Breakfast..

After breakfast. daddy drive us down to Sunway Lagoon to shop some more.. the mall is SUPER BIG! lolz.. it is about the size of 3/4 of Orchard road together.. Imagine that.. anyway, we ate at Sushi King for lunch.. the food so so.. not that nice.. the Salmon Sashimi was kinda FROZEN!.. when i bite into it.. i can actually feel the ice.. It is also kinda expensive.. Just like singapore.. different plate has a different prize..

Sushi!

Love Candida

Re: Pariss Pics

2009-05-18T15:45:00.021+08:00

Pariss International Seafood Buffet

Here goes the pictures for Pariss.. Hahahz.. my cousin have been asking me to upload~ so here goes..

Yummy!

Big Big Oyster!

My Dad!

My Mum!

My Cutesy cousin..

Me and Kuku!

Cousin and Kuku!

Me and Wesley!

Walton cousin and tita..

Walton and tita~ awww.. so sweet..

My Sweetheart.. (^_^)

sneaky Pic..

sneaky pic 2

hahahz.. that's all for now.. hmz.. the food was not bad.. quite a few variety.. however, there wasn't really a "WOW" effect to it.. and kinda expensive.. People who like seafood can try.. They have a japanese counter which provide a few types of common sashimi such as salmon.. tako and etc.. apart from that, there is also chinese food counter where they serve common dim sum such as siew mai.. prawn dumpling.. the restaurant serve soups such as shark fin.. herbal soup and etc.. chocolate foundule for dessert as well as other cakes and pasteries and tang shui.. oh.. btw, the also serve western food such as grilled dory fish, lamp chop as well as chicken chop.. There is also food that can be found on the international buffet tray.. food such as chilli crab.. steam crab.. stir fry veg.. fried rice / noodles, satay and etc are also available.. free flow of drinks such as fruit punch, soft drinks.. tea, coffee.. milo and etc..

Overall rating: 3/5

Marina Square (Pariss International)
6 Raffles Boulevard #03-128A,

Singapore 039594

Tel: 65-62586688

Fax: 65-63396923

Re: Finally Complete!

2009-04-30T09:13:00.007+08:00

Morning!!! i have finally finish rendering the Triple Three Restaurant Servery and Wine Bar.. yippiee!!! completed all the counters at that restaurant as well as Chatterbox.. At last.. it's has been like intensive Interior Rhino all the way.. Oh god~

Hmz.. it's raining here again.. i think it rain every morning this week.. and very heavily.. i can hear the rain from inside the office.. sigh.. so cold.. Rain is cold.. air con is cold.. think i am falling sick soon.. blog later ba.. need to see if i got work to do today.. lolz..

Love Candida

Re: Pictures!

2009-04-29T14:25:00.049+08:00

hmz.. i went to Malacca some time back.. visit their zoo. ate chicken rice ball, sing k.. hahaz.. went also to their museum.. hahaz.. took some pictures but very lazy to post it up.. so since i am so free now with my camera attached to the computer, i decide to post it.. hahahaz!!!! here it goes..

k singing section.. (k-lunch)

traditional stall..

chicken rice ball

yummy..

lazy policeman.. stand under the shade..

near the museum..

famours heritage museum..

zoo!! giraffe posing.. hahaz.. sexy..

you go ya way i go mine.. humph..

2 head and a body..

stretch..

standing tall and proud..

looks like she is wearing a fur coat..

in the mist of the plants..

bang! pretend dead..

snorzing.. zzZZzzzZ

can you spot them??

cutesy family..

rhino.. sianz.. hahaz..

sexy legs, nice butt.. woo.. lolz..

look into my eyes..

hahaz.. it was fun.. i wanna go again.. at time i feel that singapore is so so boring.. nothing much to do.. and everything is so so expensive.. OMG!!! will visit again soon.. (^_^)

Love Candida

Re: Painful

2009-04-29T14:14:00.004+08:00

apparently, nice shoes is always NOT nice to wear.. sigh.. in the office now.. sitting at my desk.. barefooted.. hahaz.. having painful toes..

this morning decided to wear the pair of shoes i bought at Bangkok last june.. and my my.. didn't know that it is gonna cause so much pain.. sobb sobb.. me and my itchy butt.. but it looks nice..

nice to see.. but also painful to wear.. my poor feets.. got blisters at my big toes area!!! i wanna cry le.. i don't even wanna stand up and walk.. no even to the toielt.. oh man..

today is a boring day.. nth much to do in the office.. render rhino the whole morning.. it's like nother hour per pic.. boring~ but now, it is even more boring.. cos i have absolutely nothing to do.. everyone seems to be busy and i am feeling guilty here.. doing nothing but blogging, checking emails, msn, reading some freaky scary forum about ghost hunting.. hahaz..

hmz.. ate bread with egg omelette for lunch today.. thanks mummy for waking up early to prepare that for me.. (^_^) love you.. hahaz.. however, i waited till lunch to eat that and the bread have somehow turn kinda soggy.. sad sad.. but still, bcos of the grumbling and hungry stomach, i ate it..

i am so tired.. not sure why.. didn't do much today too.. sigh..

Love Candida

Re: Sianz

2009-04-28T15:41:00.016+08:00

i am now in the office.. got nothing to do again.. waiting for my Rhino to finish rendering.. it takes about an hour to finish rendering one.. OMG!!! what a waste of time.. i feel like sleeping now..

anyway, went to watch "Friday the 13" last friday.. not exactly u can say scary.. but kinda anticipating for some scene.. not sure where "Jason" will suddenly appear.. or not sure who will die worz.. my friend arm was almost torn off from his shoulder.. cos i was like gripping it so tightly.. hahaz.. quite a nice show.. though it some seems to have been playing and re-playing for numerous times already..

sigh.. kinda busy at work recently.. got so many counters modeling to do.. hmz.. but somehow, they are kinda similar.. cos it is for the same restaurant just a different section/area.. hmz.. tired tired.. almost cannot wake up for the past few days.. guess i am real tired.. not sure why too..

Triple Three Restaurant - Western Kitchen

Triple Three Restaurant - Noodles Station

Triple Three Restaurant - Asian Kitchen

currently doing their Servery Bar.. will update again later when it is all done ba.. so bored!

hmz.. oh yahz.. went to eat Pariss at Marina Square last Saturday.. The whole Tan Clan was there.. (^_^) it's nice to meet up and have meals together once in awhile.. i had fun.. ate lots! will post the pictures later ba.. Yummy!!! FOOD!!!

talk about food, i wonder what is for dinner.. hahaz.. working here makes me look forward to dinner.. lolz.. cos hardly take lunch here.. and is dead hungry by around 6pm or 7pm..

not sure why time seems to pass so slow these few days worz.. seems like tortoise.. OMG!!! can it just speed up a little.. sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz.. i think i better stop blogging here.. if not i am going to cover the whole page with sianz.. lolz.. hope the day will end great..

Love Candida

Re: Thursay post..

2009-04-23T13:00:00.010+08:00

hmz.. now is not lunch time.. hahaz.. went to 3rd floor cafe ate lunch today.. hungry hungry..

anyway, Mervin isn't here today.. he msg me last night saying that he is running a temperature.. hmz.. poor thing.. take care k.. think maybe the office here is really too cold.. and kinda stress ba..

so here i am now, doing his work.. hahaz.. finish up the Rhino he left behind yesterday.. lolz.. not sure why.. i seems to have some problem with the lighting today.. no matter what i do, it just seems weird.. then in the end, i give up.. look a little sucky..

not nice right.. i think so too.. hmz.. got to go do submission le.. i think got another project to do.. think will be stuck with Rhino these few days.. sigh.. but never mind.. practise makes perfect..

Love Candida

Re: Kinda free today!!!

2009-04-22T16:45:00.003+08:00

hahaz.. i am so free now!!! cos i have finish my counter top.. Mervin doing the next one.. felt a little guilty.. cos i actually asked Chermin to let him do it.. But no choice.. after looking at the computer and so many small tiny, colourful lines for so long, my eyes starting to hurt.. kinda dry too.. when i blink my eyes, i can feel the strain.. so my apology.. hmz.. so now he is doing the Rhino.. but i helped too.. so bored..

Actually got to do some drafting work.. but this lappie somehow keep hanging when i use atuocad.. cos no choice.. cannot do.. therefore now i seems to have nothing to do.. and here i am.. typing away.. all my nonsense and rubbish.. lolz..

Hmz.. i am so tired.. my neck ache.. i think i should go for a massage.. hahaz.. but cannot.. cos i am scare of the ticklish sensation.. too bad..

Anyway, this weekend will be another busy one.. got buffet dinner with my aunt before her operation next week.. i hope that she will be fine.. cannot let anything happen to her!!! Aunt, you have to be strong.. the whole Tan Clan will be there to support you..

Got something on on Sunday.. need to meet one of my friend up.. Cos kinda promise his mum some time ago but haven been able to make it due to my busy busy schedule.. Sigh.. see.. there goes my weekend.. sad man.. weekend still got to wake up kinda early.. how can i ever rest..

Meeting my friend later for dinner.. his mummy cooking for me!!! yippiee!!! i love home cooked food.. after eating tabao and outside food for some time, i crave for home cooked food.. yummy!!! hmz.. after dinner i think we'll go somehwere to chill and talk ba.. i hope that the problem between us will be resolved by today.. i am tired.. i think you are too.. so pls.. stop being so stubborn.. humph!!!

i think i should kinda stop blogging and go back to find work to do.. or maybe go and help mervin.. lolz.. i feel so bad that everyone seems to be so busy and i am like so free here blogging.. kekez.. i need to put myself into good use!!! yeah!!! hmZ.. gng off le.. think will blog again tml if i happen not to eat lunch AGAIN.. or if i have nothing to do again ba.. lolz..

Love Candida

Re: Today is Wenesday..

2009-04-22T12:14:00.011+08:00

Hmz.. lunch time!! and once again it is time to blog.. hahaz.. anyway, didn't puasa today.. bought abit of the gultinous rice from Old Chang Kee this morning when i reached Yew Tee.. so now, i am sitting infront of the computer.. eating and typing away.. hahaz..

Been kinda distracted and tired lately.. not sure whether is it the effect of work or... hmz.. quarrel with a friend.. cos he say that i have no time for him.. sigh.. what more do you expect?? i am only human.. and there is only so much that i have or can offer.. there is only one of me and so many of you guys and things that i have to do.. Sigh.. if u really care, then all the more you should understand that i am having a tight and constrain time.. i need to work.. from early norning till late evening.. i got my family to care and talk to.. i got my stupid household thingy to do.. i got other friends too apart from you.. how can i split?? in the first place, can you do it?? I have enough of all you crap and bull shitting.. i am not sure how long more i can take before i finally snap and then, i'm sorry.. it will therefore be the end of everything.. and when u realised that, it will be too late.. no more apologises or promises can revive what is already dead..

Got new projects to do on Rhino.. boring.. another kitchen counter top.. look some what similar.. but using a different material.. hahaz.. it's not as hard to do as the previous one..

Hahaz.. nice?? hmz.. i used one day to finish it.. seems to be getting faster and faster.. lolz.. anyway, i think got another new project to do after lunch ba.. need to finish rendering this.. hmz.. at times encounter some problem though.. the way to render for interior and product is different.. have to use eye level to render for interior.. which to a industrial designer at times might seems a little funny.. but anway, it's fun.. and it's a new thing learned!!! more to come!!! i will be ready to take on all challenges.. Yippiee!!!

Got to go now.. will blog again later if i got the time.. (^_^)

Love Candida..

Re: 100%

2009-04-22T10:18:00.002+08:00

I was reading this article.. and i find that at times it is so true..

A boy and a girl were playing together.
The boy had a collection of marbles.
The girl had some sweets with her.
The boy told the girl that he will give her all his marbles in exchange for her sweets.
The girl agreed.
The boy kept the biggest and the most beautiful marble aside and gave the rest to the girl.
The girl gave him all her sweets as she had promised.
That night, the girl slept peacefully.
The boy couldn't sleep as he kept wondering if the girl had hidden some sweets from him
The way he had hidden his best marble.

Moral of the story: If you don't give your hundred percent in a relationship, you'll always keep doubting if the other person has given his/her hundred percent like love, friendship, employer-employee relationship etc.,
Give your hundred percent to everything you do and sleep peacefully
"It's nice to be an important person, but it's more important to be a nice person."

Love Candida

Re: At work again!!!

2009-04-21T11:59:00.013+08:00

Hahaz.. it's lunch time again.. and i am gonna puasa again as usual.. anyway, had quite a heavy breakfast.. met my bro at Yew Tee this morning to eat.. hahaz.. he was LATE!!! omg.. i called him when i was on the train going from Kranji to Yew Tee and he was still i bed!!! just woke up huh.. Lazy piggy.. so i went to buy newpaper.. wait for him at the bus stop.. and oof~ he was sure fast.. i think in about 15 mins, he was there le.. hahaz.. we decided to go to the new foodcourt at the MRT station to eat.. and gosh.. there was not much things there at the moment.. i ate fried noodles mix mee hoon.. and he ate prata.. the food was alright.. but the place at that time was hot.. like SAUNA!!! so we kinda like eat and left the place.. then we went to the new Yew Tee point to blow air con since it is still early.. lolz.. so walked around for awhile and then got to go.. we parted at the MRt.. hahaz.. meeting next tuesday for breakfast again.. yippie!!!

anyway, was doing filing since morning.. then after that my job was taken away by Mervin.. sigh.. cos i got to start to do another counter rendering on Rhino.. oh man.. another eye popping session.. hahaz.. was reading my emails.. and kinda come across some quite interesting articles that i would like to share.. (^_^)

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

To provide you with guidance and support.

To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

This person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realise is that

Our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
Because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something or make you laugh.
They usually give you an unbelieveable amout of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationship teach you lifetime lesson.

Things you must build upon to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson.

Love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationship

and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

So, thank everyone who have been and is being a part of my life

Whether you were a reason. a season or a lifetime..

One should live life with no excuses and love with no regrets.

When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry,

Show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile.

Face your past without regrets,

Handle your present with confident.

Prepare yourself for the future without fear

Keep the faith and drop the fear.

Great men says, " Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and develioping goodness."

In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience.

The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling.

And even more beautiful is knowing that you are the reason behind it.

Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last.
We should stop making our lives complicated.
Life is short
Break the rules
Forgive quickly
Kiss passionately
Love truly
Laugh constantly
Never stop smiling
No matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected it to be
But as long as we are here
We should smile and be grateful

Each and every choice made in life lies in your hands.

Think before making and never live to regret it.

Don't let opportunities slip away when it is within your reach

As there might never be a second chance.

Make the choice.

Make the right choice.

Love Candida

Re: Post at last..

2009-04-20T12:26:00.008+08:00

Hmmm.. haven really been blogging at all lately.. So busy with work.. Sigh.. hardly have time for myself.. Been working for almost 2 weeks.. This is the 3rd.. Kinda fun working.. I kinda enjoy it though the place is like so far off at some deserted corner of Singapore with hardly any transports and food around.. but still i find that working is great.. Design Studio.. My company.. hahaz.. sound like some loyal employee.. As if.. so my company mainly do lots and lots of interior design and deco which i have no level of experience in.. and they uses Autocad software instead of rhino.. so it's kinda like re-learning autocad all over again just that this time it is more deeper and harder to understand cos there are like so many freaking colours lines which come u dun even know what it means.. hahaz.. so i pressume that when i go back to school, i will be a super autocad pro.. lolz.. anyway, they also install rhino for me to do some 3D modeling for them.. Lolz.. so hard.. cos i kinda used to do product with rhino and most are kinda small skill.. doing interior is so so much different.. cos u got to be precise abt the dimension and scale.. more over, everything is so BIG!!! and u got to do everyhting up to the last pot and pans.. oh my.. but it's challenging.. a new experience for me.. anyway, here in the office, i kinda get to know more people.. people from other countries that is working here.. so cool.. however, i miss school.. here is so quiet when everyone is doing work.. u can hear ya own typing sound.. even ya breathing sometime.. i miss those noise that everyone made in class.. sigh.. anyway, i think that i shall stop blogging abt office here.. will continue when i got more free time.. hmz.. show u a few pics of the interior i did for Chatterbox Restaurant..

Kinda cool right.. hahaz.. this is the first time that i use rhino to finish an interior design project.. Hahaz.. cannot wait for the next one.. (^_^)

Hmz.. working is fun but tiring.. hardly can wake up some time.. lolz.. anyway, went out almost every weekend.. cannot waste precious time.. hahaz.. took quite alot of pics.. ate alot of food.. hahaz.. wil update the pics soon when i got the time.. i am now suppose to have lunch but here i am in the office blogging.. cos i got no food to eat.. sad.. oh yahz.. went also to Suntec City on friday after work.. met my ex there.. we went to eat Japanese food.. super exp.. but quite nice.. hmz.. he is broke now.. cos he treat me eat.. lolz.. thanks man.. next time i save money bring u go eat nice food too k.. but u boss mahz.. where got need me to bring de.. so i better save and keep my money.. bleah :P so the next meal "jiu kao ni le".. hahaz.. anyway, it's nice to see u again.. it's been quite a long time le.. and somehow it is a rare thing for people like us to go out together.. lolz.. hope to see u soon ba.. i arrange my time again ba.. hahaz.. ya the boss, i'm the busy one.. like what u always say.. so right.. so true..

Introducing Sayang!!! dont say i never blog abt you now.. Lolz.. anyway, get to know this cute and funny sayang a few weeks ago.. talk to him for a feel time and everytime kena bully.. hahaz.. always trying to make a joke out of everything.. but above all that, i enjoy talking to him and he's real nice.. hahaz.. sorry haven been really free to talk much to you on the phone or msn and even facebook.. but i miss ya.. so u must think of me too k.. *hugz*

Really busy lately.. at times i don't know what i am doing also.. lolz.. Mervin is sleeping now.. hahaz.. he sits infront of me.. no food for him today too.. cos didn't want to go down to the cafe to eat.. food there is exp and worse still, not nice.. hahaz.. so today all puasa!!! poor us.. think next time my liaison officer come, must complain.. but i think he also won't care.. never even call and check whether we're dead or alive.. must be eating snake again lahz.. as always.. told Shan i put snake in the "red" car.. hahaz..

okiez.. i need to start working again.. boss is back from her lunch.. oops.. cannot let her see me here typing and typing away.. will update soon again.. meanwhile, those who have gone back to school, i miss u guys.. take care and see u all soon.. or those at work, good luck with everything.. hahaz.. talk to u all again!!!

Love Candida

Re: Boring Week..

2009-03-31T22:07:00.004+08:00

Hmz.. Boring.. Everyday seems to be the same.. a routine.. and i somehow cannot seems to believe that i actually say that.. I miss school.. I miss all those assignment.. I miss all those things that keep me occupy.. OMG!!! sound crazy right.. i am not in the right state of mind..

Anyway, went to JB last Saturday.. Watched "Confession of a Shopaholic" at City Square.. Was quite a nice movie.. Interesting.. and kinda reflect alot on a girl's life.. Shopping.. Shopping and never stopping even when in debt.. Lolz..

After the movie, my friend kept saying.. You are just that girl.. Lolz.. For the last time, i am not a shopaholic.. Hahaz.. though i do swap cards but i also got my limit k.. Hmz.. went shopping after the movie.. Bought a pair of boots.. Woo.. nice.. was looking for it for a long long time.. never get to see one.. And also bought another pair of working shoes.. Need to get one since attachment is gonna start.. i just love it.. hahaz.. oh yahz.. i also bought another top.. Nice.. anyway, had a fun day there.. Came back kinda late cos have to accompany my friends to collect his car from the car garage that he sent for spraying.. (^_^)

Hmz.. went to watch another movie yesterday.. "Coming soon"!!! was so scary.. my heart almost drop out.. the "ghost" was real freaky.. i was kinda like grabbing my friend hand all the time.. Lolz.. the movie starts at 9.20pm.. it kinda finish around 10.30pm.. When we walked out from the other exit of the cinema which was kinda dark and quiet with many corridor.. Just like the movie.. OMG!!! scary right.. Then my bad friend kinda tease and scare me saying alots of freaky stuff related to the movie.. It's real real frightening.. anyway, at last we reached his car.. Hahaz.. and he at the end of the day was also scare.. :P Bleah!! See.. this is call retribution.. Who ask u to bully me!!! After that he kinda send me back home..

* Not putting up the movie poster as i find it real scary.. Don't want to freak out everytime i see my blog.. hahaz.. *

Somehow i find that the time is still early so i decided to call another friend see whether he wants to come out for food and a drink.. so.. hahaz.. he agree.. Kinda chiong from Sengkang to Marsiling.. Sorry.. i know it's a long way.. So i waited for him under my block.. normally my place was quite ulu.. but luckily there was a people around talking.. so i was not alone.. Thank god! anyway, he came at almost 12am.. hmz.. not sure where to go.. not sure what to eat.. but after much brain cracking, we finally decided to go to Sun Plaza for Mac.. Hahaz.. The place was still kinda crowded.. Hmz.. I wonder.. people no need to sleep.. Lolz.. anyway, we bought Mac then went to Sembawang Park to eat.. Chill there and talk.. It has been a long time since we've talked.. And i was nice.. sharing many things that have happened.. Giving advices.. Nagging and complaining about life.. Hahaz.. It was nice, sweet and simple.. We kinda talked till almost 2.30am then he send me back home.. lolz.. Thanks Airell.. It was a nice night out!!! We should do that more often.. (^_^)

Love Candida

Re: My Pathetic Holiday..

2009-03-27T20:04:00.019+08:00

Holiday period seems to always pass the fastest.. Time passes even faster when you're doing nothing and rotting at home.. Not that i complain about rotting.. I actually find it relaxing.. Shutting my mind off from so many things.. A time to slack.. A time to relax before any chaotic and stressful thing happen.. Anyway, did quite a few things apart from rotting.. Hahaz..

Went to watch quite a few movies..

1) The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button..
2) Marley And Me..
3) Love Matters
5) Kungfu Chef
4) Race To Witch Mountain

hmz.. ate quite alot this holida too.. hahaz.. Grow fatter again.. Oh man!!! Went to Tao's Restaurant to eat with my family the other day after watching Marley and Me..

Yummy right.. It was nice but was super full and bloated after the meal.. Hmz.. a 8 course dinner for quite a reasonable price.. It's a must go must try.. (^_^)

Went down to Raffles Place to meet my mother after watching Race To Witch Mountain.. Waited for her for quite some time.. After that we went to DON (you personal pie club) to eat.. DON is specialize in pies.. however, we went there to eat the Crab Bee Hoon.. Nice!!! It's another must try if u go pass..

Hmz.. Going to watch TV now.. Will update again soon.. (^_^) Trying to enjoy my holiday as much as i can now.. going to start my attachment soon..

Design Studio Furniture Manufacturer Pte Ltd... Here is come!!! I hope that it will be a good and knowledgeable experiences.. Can't wait for it to start.. Kekez..

Love Candida

Re: Holiday..

2009-03-15T21:27:00.003+08:00

Holiday.. At last.. Been waiting and waiting for these days to come.. Lolz.. and i i am rotting almost everyday at home.. It's been such a long time that i have "nua" at home.. So tired.. Working hard for the past months.. With so many projects.. assignments and tests.. However, sad to say that i am SICK!!! OMG!!! I can rest at last and now i am sick.. Sigh.. It's sad.. Having diarrhea the past days i guess.. Stomach keep having waves and waves of pain.. fainting.. It started yesterday.. when i was in JB.. i think it has something to do with the Chocolate Banana Cake at secret recipe.. Sigh.. I am never gonna eat from that restaurant at that place anymore.. Damn..
Hope that my stomach will feel better soon.. Sigh.. Hurting again.. If it still continue then i am going to see a doctor tomorrow..

Love Candida

Re: Warning!!!

2009-03-01T18:21:00.005+08:00

Ladies out there beware.. the above are some facial cream that is causing cancer!!! Please take note and pass it to your family and friends as well.. For those who are mothers, please do not sure the products on your babies.. One of the more famous band is J&J (Commonly used on babies..)

Re: This is Life..

2009-02-26T11:23:00.002+08:00

What are we living for?? There are so many things that we worked hard for. However, it does not always work out the way we wanted it to.. We tried.. Studying, being filial, making friends, being in a relationship and etc... There are times which no matter how hard you try, it will never be you.. never be yours..

Despair.. That's how we felt.. Asking ourselves time and again what went wrong.. Isn't that the right formula to the maths question?? Isn't that what my mother wanted?? Aren't friends suppose to be believe in each other??

Life isn't like that.. It is not a formula which you can memorise and use it in maths.. It is not something which you can decide about what will happen next.. It is not yours to call for.. It is not entirely just about you..

Our life is created by many parts and pieces.. Everything and everyone plays a role in life.. Memories be it sad or happy are also crucial.. It will affect our mood when we thought about it.. There are things that one will remember for a long long time whereas others just for short period.. One will always remember bad memories compared to the good onces.. One will always remember the one bad thing that someone did to you rather than all the good things that the same person have done for you..

At times i feel that life is pathetic.. We cry, we laugh, we get angry over so many things.. So many different emotion that sometimes, we ourselves can't even handle it.. Why?? Are we really so vulnerable?? I wonder.. We get hurt through words.. Through others action.. We are always getting hurt as well as hurting others.. Why ?? Shouldn't life be good?? shouldn't living be something you look forward to?? Shouldn't you pray and thanks god every morning knowing that you are still alive?? but there are times when life is real bad that you wish you weren't alive.. you wish that you never have to face the music.. always living in shadows..

there are always swo many whys.. but there is never an answers to such questions.. It always depends on how you view your life.. How you make your choices.. how you want to live.. It is about you.. and only you can decide what kind of life you wanna led..

Love Candida

Re: Words..

2009-02-25T20:15:00.004+08:00

School is finally over.. Need to finish up the Singapore Mint project and this term has officially ended.. Many things have happen.. But i'm glad that it has end too somehow or another.. Mummy send me an email.. i find the words inside interesting and meaningful..

Don't ever ever give up......

One day I decided to quit...

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... in fact I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light.

I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.

Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed, but I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.

And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed, but I did not quit on the bamboo.

He said, "In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed, but I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.

He said, "then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.

Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant. ..

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me,

"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".

"I would not quit on the bamboo.

I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others."

He said.

"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.

Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me.

"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?"

I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

Never, Never, Never Give up.

It is right.. no matter how hard and bad life is for us, we should never ever give up.. Live our life to the fullest and never look back to regret.. There is never a second chance in everything you do therefore, once you've started, never give up.. Always remember that there are people around you who are like God, never giving up hopes on you..

Love Candida

Re: Happy Belated Birthday..!!!

2009-02-18T21:02:00.007+08:00

To my dearest Brother.. Happy belated birthday!!! (^_^) You are another year older.. Must work hard and be good k..

Went to Swensen to eat with my mother and brother yesterday.. Celebrate my didi birthday.. Yippie.. It was nice.. A warm cosy dinner with people who you love and love you..

Love Candida

Re: I just wanna go my own way..

2009-02-16T21:49:00.002+08:00

These few days have been chaotic and it sux.. I don't want to argue and quarrel anymore.. you can say what you want to say.. I don't want to know about it.. As long as i know that i am conscious about what i am doing then it's alright.. I'm tired.. I just want to go my own way.. So let whatever you want to say be it then.. There is nothing that i can say to make u believe that i am not such a person.. Be it whether u heard the tales from someone or u hear it urself.. If u want to continue believing that i am such a person then there is also nothing i can do..

Anyway, i want to also apologize for what i have previously blog.. i guess being angry i was harsh and stuff.. i mean i should be objective about the things that i blog.. Shouldn't comment on a person outlook..

I am enlightened.. I shouldn't have bother what others think about me as long as i know that it is not true.. What is important is to show and prove to them whether anot they want to see.. Anyway, at this point of time, it is a moment of seeing who is true and who is not.. Thanks boy for always ensuring me that no matter what or who brings me down, you will be beside me, supporting me.. And lastly, thanks for all my friends who stood by my side..

Love Candy

Re: Super Busy..

2009-01-21T20:30:00.002+08:00

Been like super busy lately.. I am so so tired and shag.. I wanna rest.. I wanna sleep.. I wanna slack around and do nothing.. I wanna do lots of things but i just don't seems to have the time.. So many projects to do.. So many deadlines to meet.. Sigh..

Chinese New Year is approaching but it just doesn't seems the same as before.. There seems to be no joy of celebration.. There seems to be not much of a commotion going around.. I've got like so many things to do before the coming New Year.. Mummy been asking me to pack the house.. Clean each and every corner.. Sigh.. Where the hell I have the time?? I have got my own projects and assignments to do as well.. Moreover she is NOT appreciative.. For example yesterday, I have like got a power point and a report to rush yet when she ask me to help her with some household chores, I never hesitate and agree.. I reached home at around 6pm and was suppose to do my work but in the end, I ate dinner at 9pm and then start doing my things.. Sigh.. Slept quite late..

Did my Business Enterprise presentation today.. initially thought that my group ppt and report was quite "chui".. however, it wasn't so.. Hahahz.. Found out that it was actually quite good.. I'm not sure is it because we are too good a speaker that we crap our way through and still make sense or we kinda did a proper job for the ppt.. Anyway, it is finally over for Enterprise module.. I am just so glad.. One down eight more to go i think.. Shag..

I still got lots to do for Studio.. how am i suppose to enjoy and celebrate my CNY when i stil got so much to do.. How?? I've go to like finish my Rhino modeling, do up my 2 A2 size P.board, sand my stupid bluefoam then putty then sand then putty then sand then putty again the sand.. Repeat the putty and sand till the model is like super smooth.. After all that, got to spray paint.. sigh.. this time project must spray paint quite a few color.. Oh man.. Stupid project.. Stupid model. Stupid Stupid Stupid!!!

Re: Monday Monday Monday..

2008-12-15T19:48:00.006+08:00

Hmz.. school again.. so tired tired.. Had only 2 hours class today.. started at 10am and ended before 12pm.. omg.. seems like i come to school for nothing..

Been raining everyday and night lately.. it's cold.. i like this time of the year.. no sweat.. nice weather..

On my way walking to the station, i saw Randy!!! he's on his way to school to take some stuff.. so i kinda like accompany him.. walked back.. hahaz.. So we kinda like talk.. haven been really talking to him lately.. i guess we're both busy.. he seems to have quite some problem with his classmates.. hmz.. dear boy.. don't worry too much.. i believe that it will be resolve soon.. everything will eventually be alright.. so don't think too much about what others say.. as long as you know that you did right, that's enough..

Reached home around 3pm.. was really shag.. so went to sleep all the way till around 7pm.. woo.. it was refreshing..

Sigh.. don't know what to blog.. I am missing something in life..

Oh.. yahz.. i went to watch "Twilight" the other day.. Wow!!! it was totally so so cool.. i like it alot.. i think i am gonna buy the disc when it is out..

"Twilight" is an action-packed, modern day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands and he hasn't aged since 1918.

Like all vampires, he's immortal. But he doesn't have fangs, and he doesn't drink human blood; Edward and his family are unique among vampires in their lifestyle choice. To Edward, Bella is that thing he has waited 90 years for a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre), the Cullens' mortal vampire enemies, come to town, looking for her? Based on the Stephenie Meyer book...

The movie was so so so so cool.. the vampires really seems "perfect".. I love the movie..
Ratings: 4/5 star..

Re: Another Week Pass..

2008-12-11T21:26:00.025+08:00

Was kinda busy this weekend.. Got lots of stuffs to do.. Sigh.. However, i enjoyed my weekend.. Went out to eat with my family.. I think i ate too much good food.. Grow fatter.. Hahaz..

Went to Mustafa last saturday.. Need to buy some stuff from there.. Saw a table cloth that is quite nice.. was thought of buying but went to find someone to measure and cut the material for me but couldn't find any.. Sigh.. The service is real poor.. so i went to another section to ask the person in charge.. so she kinda like called the office for someone but no answer i guess.. Was real pathetic.. After awhile, i was like super fed up cause no one seems to be able to do it.. I didn't buy it in the end.. sad sad.. I think when new year is approaching then i might go down again to get some more stuff.. After shopping, i went to the shop selling steamboat opposite the Novena church.. Was not bad though.. they got up to 5 selection of soup.. " chicken, fish, tom yam, ma la, salted veg.." yummy.. however, i only choose 3 instead of taking all 5.. i like the salted veg one most.. it was nice.. a little spicy..

Went to walk around at balestier mall after dinner.. nothing much but kinda a form of exercise.. was too full.. hahaz..

Stayed home on sunday and monday.. got alot of unwanted things to do.. Sianz..

School started on tuesday.. was boring.. studio again.. Khairul wasn't around.. no consultation again.. I am stuck .. Not sure what to do.. no direction.. like a wandering spirit.. OMG!!! I hate studio for this semester.. I hate vacuum cleaner..

Didn't have school on wednesday.. but i got to go down to orchard CK Tangs to change a watch for my father.. So i went down with my brother as he is having his holiday now.. So we went out then change papa's watch.. after that we went to walk around thinking of what to eat.. hahaz.. eat again.. so in the end we decided to walk to cineleisure to the "xin wang hong kong cafe" walking pass hereen, we saw this coke sculpture.. Interesting..

Me and bro went to Xin wang and eat.. the food was alright.. not the very fantastic.. still edible thought.. however, i might not consider wanting to go there and eat again.. Hmz.. Maybe i just don't like it.. Wasn't to my liking.. but my brother seems to enjoy the food.. I ordered pork chop with preserved veg in noodles soup and bro had baked rice with fish.. We also ordered siew mai and spared pork ribs and also the hong kong famous "Yuan Yang" drink..

AFter lunch, me and bro walked around cineleisure.. tired tired.. meet my mother around 7pm at Raffles Place.. Went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner.. hahaz.. eat again.. Ate fish, chicken, kang kong, satay.. Yummy.. Food food and food..

yummy right.. i am so sinful.. Hahaz.. but who cares~

Today was another day of studio.. got another headaches.. sad sad.. need to draw more and conceptualize more and more.. sianz.. Phuats cancel his lesson as usual.. his style.. hahaz.. so i went back home.. rest.. then in the late afternoon went to the library with my brother.. need to return alot alot of books.. hahaz.. but i think read lesser recently.. sianz.. no nice and interesting books.. so went to return and renew a few others which i have not finish reading due to lack of time and interest.. after that meet my mummy again.. my brother suggested to go eat Jack's Place.. so there we go.. Another full full dinner.. Woo~ I had steak and chicken top with mushroom sauce.. And mushroom soup with garlic bread.. yummy..

I guess i need to stop eating.. hahaz.. so sianz.. stress!!!

Tomorrow i'm sure it another boring day.. got info graphics.. I feel like wearing my boots to school.. but wonder is it appropriate.. cos some people might say otherwise.. Sianz.. people are like that.. or maybe i might bring along and change when school end.. Going out.. hahaz..

I think i will stop blogging here.. hand aching from typing.. will blog again ba.. nowadays kinda lazy to upload photos.. cause the system a little slow.. maybe during the holidays when i've got nothing to do and got the time to stone i will then take my own sweet time to upload.. so stay tune.. tired tired.. think i am going to sleep soon.. tomorrow is another long long day..

Love Candida

Re: Obsession

2008-12-05T21:41:00.011+08:00

I seems to have a craving with strawberries these days.. Not sure why.. But it seems like i am obsessed!!! Oh my.. I Love Strawberries!!! Look at it.. So red.. So delicious.. Sexy.. Luscious.. Sinful.. Yummy!!!

I LOVE STRAWBERRIES!!! STRAWBERRIES!!! STRAWBERRIES!!!

Love Candida

Re: Yet Another Week

2008-12-05T21:23:00.004+08:00

Another week have just zoom pass.. So many submission.. Sigh.. It's a real tired and sleepless week.. Luckily, today was one of the last presentation and deadline for projects.. Got a long weekend to rest and recuperate.. It's sleeping time.. Presentation for info graphics today was kinda like a disaster.. I was the first one up and was real real nervous.. Not sure why but i guess it is because i haven been really presenting lately therefore going up there first might be a little more nerve breaking.. but on the other hand, it might also be because i am not confident with my ppt and have no idea what the crap i'm doing.. Sigh.. Class hasn't been very good lately.. Most seems to have some negative comments about some one else.. What the.. Why can't some people just stop poking their nose into other people business and mind their own freaking business.. It just sux.. Life is so unfair and full of criticism.. Wateva~ my heart is so confuse, my mind is in a blank, I am not sure what i'm doing, I hope it's right, I'm lost, who will be that willing hand, to lift me up from darkness, fill my life with hopes and never again let go..

Love Candida

Re: Happy Birthday Mummy!!!

2008-12-02T21:42:00.012+08:00

Today is mummy birthday.. So firstly, i gotta wish mummy a happy happy birthday.. may all ya wishes come true and always stay young and pretty ..

Anyway, School till 4 plus then met my brother at Sembawang.. Was kinda early though.. mummy finish work at 6pm so i think will roughly reach there around 7pm.. So me and bro went walking around.. hunting for presents to buy.. hahaz.. (so last minute.. but no choice cos i've been kinda busy lately therefore got no time.. ) Walk around for quite some time.. no use.. cos cannot fins anything at all.. then in the end, me and bro decided to go to the arcade.. hahaz.. played some stupid game.. Both of us are like kids.. i miss my young days.. i miss playing in the arcade.. i miss having fun and no worries.. Back to topic.. After that me and bro went to the library.. slack around waiting for the arrival of my mother.. So she reached around 7pm.. We went to Sakae Teppanyaki to eat.. Hmz.. the food wasn't really fantastic.. The serving was alright though.. I had chicken set, seafood set for mum and sukayaki beef set for my brother..

Yummy.. I didn't managed to take my food cos i was so so hungry.. i kinda ate it before remembering that i did not take pictures.. oh man!!! Next time i really got to remember.. stop taking pictures of empty plates.. hahaz..

After dinner, went to walk around with mummy and bro.. didn't go to Sun Plaza for quite some time though nothing much change.. The place still does not have lots of stuff.. Just some boring shops.. Sigh.. I spent almost $130 for my mummy present.. Sad.. I am official broke.. but nvm.. as long as mummy is happy.. (^_^)

overall, today is still quite a great day except for some stuff that happen in school as well as my stupid studio.. i hate studio and i hate vacuum cleaner.. at times i just cannot understand why must we have so many supervisors?? Can't there just be one.. So many design direction to follow.. how can i fulfill everything?? i tried.. but it just seems different.. seems not enough.. i had enough of it.. stupid vacuum cleaner.. there's another presentation tomorrow.. boring.. then there is also another presentation the day after tomorrow.. more boring.. and there is another presentation the day after tomorrow's tomorrow.. hahaz.. see.. so many things to do.. i have not started doing Scott's assignment and have not yet and no idea how to start to do my info graphics.. i am so dead.. in deep shit!!!

Tired tired.. will blog again when i got the time.. have alot of photos to upload.. (^_^)

Love Candida..

Re: Mummy Bday..

2008-12-01T21:49:00.009+08:00

Hmz. what a week.. weekend seems to always pass so fast.. in a blink of eye, it's monday again.. Anyway, celebrated my mummy birthday in advance.. Had dinner at Sembawang with mummy, my aunt, bro and my mother frenz.. woo.. it was yummy.. There was herbal frog soup, shark fins, Steam muscles with garlic and chilli, fried fish in black sauce.. Nice right?? After dinner, we went to the nearby pub.. "Cellar pub".. hmz.. had some drinks there.. then sing k.. hahaz..

so after awhile, dunno who actually bought a cake.. hahaz.. so kinda sang a birthday song.. the cake was nice.. chocolate ice cream cake.. yummy!!!

Hahaz.. overall, these week is kinda great.. Had quite some fun.. away from school, away from work.. it was good..

Went out and caught a movie too.. "Wild Child".. It was quite a nice movie though.. interesting..

Wild Child is one of those guilty pleasures, a bit like Mean Girls and Thirteen Going On Thirty, which cuts through all acquired patinas of sophistication and go straight to the inner twelve year old girl inside.

Poppy (Roberts) is a fairly typical LA teenager, self-obsessed, vacuous, spoiled and utterly sheltered. After the death of her mother, she and her father (Quinn) have been increasingly distant; he makes up for it by showering her with material goods and money while failing to give her the attention she craves; when a prank finally goes too far, rather than dealing with her properly he packs her off to an English boarding school – worse, an all girls’ English boarding school - where she is expected to learn lacrosse, wear a hideous uniform, and hand her mobile phone over to Matron (Henderson, in the second of two roles this week). Her father, and the headmistress (Richardson) hope that some discipline will turn Poppy into a lady.

And of course it works. After some initial – and frankly not too naughty – acts of rebellion (these girls don’t even smoke, let alone do drugs), Poppy is won over by our British charms. She discovers that her dorm mates, including ‘Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging’’ Kimberly Nxon and ‘Atonement’s’ Juno Temple won’t tolerate her brattish ways and, realizing that her friends in LA have forgotten her, decides to knuckle down and get on with things. And though she makes an enemy of the dominatrix-lite head girl Harriet (Georgia King) she discovers there are compensations in the form of Freddie (Pettyfer), the Head’s cute son, who is forbidden to date the girls.

Wild Child is about as deep as a mug of hot chocolate and just as enjoyable. It’s the classic poor little rich girl redeems herself story and while there’s nothing particularly new about it girls will love it. Poppy is never so bad that we don’t side with her; she is mostly ridiculous with her sanitizer spray and her shrieking, which is soon beaten out of her by England, plus we have already realized that she is actually lost and lonely, grieving for her dead mother, and needs real friends who will give her a hard time when they realise she is behaving like an idiot.

The romance with Freddie is a bit soppy; it’s never terribly clear what Freddie actually does or where he lives. He is totally set up as boyfriend material for Poppy and it doesn’t really matter about his personality; he exists simply as an object of desire, and to be the cause of Harriet’s jealousy – he is a plot device pure and simple. And pretty with it, if you like blonds. But actually where the story is much more interesting is where it touches on that old and almost forgotten idea of a woman’s film. Poppy leaves her world of boys and flirting for what almost amounts to an enclosed order, and she learns to bond with other girls. Their friendship, and not Freddie’s clumsy kisses, are what causes her emotional growth and ironically, this is where Wild Child is very old-fashioned. Poppy dies her blond hair brown, buys a party outfit from a charity shop and leads the lacrosse team to victory, embracing the uber-English values of fair play, thrift and teamwork. There is even a sort of homage to ‘Spartacus’ when Poppy is accused of a crime she didn’t commit. And this at a time when WAGs and conspicuous consumption is all the rage? Maybe Wild Child was anticipating the credit crunch?

Rating: 3/5 Star

Blogging.. watching tv.. Talking on the phone.. Thinking what am i going to do for studio.. sigh.. reali got no mood for that.. how?? don't wanna do.. but do i have the choice?? dun even know whether i still got anymore A3 paper.. lolz.. i think i better draw tomorrow during Len lecture.. so boring.. I think i ask Shan can bring some paper for me.. Hahaz.. Pathetic.. I am so tired.. i don;t want to do studio anymore.. Sianz..

Talk for quite some time with mummy today.. had dinner with her.. just me and her only.. my brother went to his tution teacher house to play board game.. so lame.. anyway, we talk about things that happen in her office.. So many problems.. sigh.. then i also told her things that happen in class and stuff.. Talk about some selfish people.. So sad..

Anyway, life is never perfect but what to do.. we just have to live with what we had and survive.. Persevere and be determine.. Dreaming is not enough to give a better life.. Work harder in order to achieve.. I dream, I wish, I strive..

Tired.. i wanna go to bed soon.. tomorrow is another long tough day of battle.. Studio is my enemy and i am the general of my sketches..

Love Candida..

Re: Monday..

2008-11-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

Hahaz.. was blogging during Chris lesson just now.. luckily he was kinda engaged with Daniel in some conversation to notice if not he will sure scold me again..

So bored.. i have so much think on hand to do but i just dun feel like doing it at all.. gotta submit VI project this thursday yet my group is kinda like only halfway through.. OMG!!! Shitty work..

Weekend seems to pass super fast.. Many things have happen through this week and i'm not sure about how i feel towards certain things.. sigh.. why must god play a spot of me? Why did i see something which i did not want to see?? Why did it makes me so upset?? Why am i crying.. Why?? I tried to believe you.. i try.. but why is it times and again u make it seems like you are not worthy of it.. Friends don't lie to friends and i believe u shouldn't.. If you think you can keep me like that in the dark, you are wrong.. How can you.. I treat you with all the kindness that i have, with all my heart and you, i am not your clown.. not a joke.. although i kept quiet and keep everything to myself but i am not dumb.. i don't want to lose you but i have my limit and i hope that u don't try to test my patient because i only have one nerve left for u and you are standing on it.. If letting you go is the best solution, i will..

Sigh.. didn't go for LKY lesson today.. was real tired and kinda sick.. felt a little bad when i saw him around the corridor when i arrive in school around 4pm for Rhino class..

Feeling very emotional these days.. tears seems unable to contain itself anymore.. i kinda break down and cry more often these days.. why.. why is my life turning into this..

Went to Raffles Hotel as my distant relative celebrate his 80th birthday.. hmz.. will update the pictures later when i am more in the mood.. i don't feel like doing anything now.. nope at all.. i just want to wrap myself up, crawl into bed and hide there till the problems all go away.. i am not myself and i hate it.. i want the once cheerful me back again..

Re: Friday at last..

2008-11-21T17:26:00.003+08:00

Been waiting and hoping for the day to come.. Oh my.. so long and finally it is here.. Hmz.. school actually starts at 1pm.. was thinking of going school late however, was talking to Koh Mei yesterday on msn and was told that the VI group project have to rhino the product instead of using other means such as photoshop or illustrator.. Sigh.. so sad.. i thought i could sleep in but.. no way.. Woke up as usual around 6 plus.. went to school with my mum.. was super early.. i reached school around 8am.. oh my.. so went to mac to grab a bite then chill there to read a few pages of my new book and also start drawing for the inforgraphics lesson later if not i've got nnothing to show.. it was real hard to draw on the grid.. the infographics symbols are to be drawn on graph paper.. hahaz.. GRAPH PAPER!!! how long have i not touch that stuff man.. and damn!!! it is really real hard to draw especially with thick pencil or pen tip.. (Will update pictures later..) anyway, went to level 6 and look for my senior.. did the rhino in the year 3 studio.. hahaz.. "woo"!! got a feel of how next year gonna be.. yeah!!! anyway, finished doing the rhino modelling around 12 plus but have not render yet cos need to let the senior see and she is not around.. she went to art friend to get material for her project.. so i went down to level 5 cos later class will be held there.. sigh.. the previous class has not end yet therefore got to wait outside awhile.. heck.. but lickily it's only for awhile then Shan and kang arrive.. hmz..

Shirley class was okiez.. quite a number of people was late today.. not sure why.. so she kinda start witht the consultation first with the few of us who is there early.. i started first.. didn't do much this week.. just show her a few pieces of exploration sketches.. class as usual, lecture and lecture.. so after lecture, i can leave... muhahaha.. class start at around 1.30pm and by 3.20, i can leave.. so happy.. cos friday suppose to end around 5pm.. oh yeah!!! sigh.. bad news.. mid crit for infographic is like two week away.. haven really did any solid work.. not sure what crap i'm gonna show again.. not sure why this semester, i feel kinda slack.. the modules are more to lecture and assignment except for a few but i just can't seems to really concentrate.. why?? sigh.. need to focus.. Buck up Gal!!!

Tired tired.. wanna sleep already.. got to do more housework tomorrow.. also got to do some of the school assignment like studio as well as otheres that need to draw and stuff.. won't be free on sunday.. got some relative gathering.. one of my distant uncles is celebrating his 80th birthday.. woo.. i not sure whether i can live that old.. hmz.. he hosting a banquet at Raffles Hotel and has invite my whole family as well as my grandma and auntie side to attend.. i think it's gonna be quite grand.. rich family.. what to do.. some people care just "hao ming".. not sure will i ever have that.. i hope ba.. sometime we just have to dream.. dream big.... lolz..

Gonna change my blog skin soon.. kinda bored with it though i really like it alot.. a little old and classic.. like those that feature on the old and romantic love story.. not sure what to change.. noo idea yet.. gotta think..

Think i will stop blogging.. will update some pictures the next time i blog.. hahaz.. my pathetic inforgraphics drawing and maybe some others ba.. Nighty night..

Love Candida

Re: Just another ordinary day..

2008-11-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

Hmz.. where should i start blogging?? School?? i guess so..

School was alright.. First lesson was VI.. discuss the concept with my group mates and OMG, we have not even finalize which concept to use.. Have not done mock up or developed any of the ideas.. We are way way behind schedule.. What the heck!!! Sigh.. sad.. a few of my group members are not really helping.. whenever i asked the, about the ideas or ask for suggestion, the only reply i always get is a shrugged or anything lahz.. can lahz.. Shitty.. Come on.. it is a group project.. why can't i have better group for VI.. the last semester was bad.. So sad, now we got to like "chiong" to catch up cos submission date is next week.. got to hand up 2 A2 presentation board, design journal and mock up.. so many.. how can i finish?? i think got to burn mignight oil for the next few days..

After VI, went to the library with wiwi, yvonne, kimi, ah lai and ziwei.. hmz.. borrowed another 4 books for Scott lesson.. then after went back to class to put the books before going to tabao lunch.. hmz.. ate in class then after that slack around before Scott class start.. Wasn't really paying much attention during his class.. was drawing for studio.. can't really hear what Scott was saying cos he was like speaking so softly.. and the ppt slides wording is so so small.. Oh man.. how to concentrate.. assignment was given and i hae got no idea what to do.. hahaz.. After tons and tons of explanation, i still don;t understand.. shit.. how am i going to do the assignment?? Stupid..

Sigh.. enough of school.. It's sad and pathetic.. Went back quite early today.. not sure what to eat for dinner then decide to cook.. went to cold storage to buy some barang barang then granny called.. ask me whether want to meet her to eat dinner as she is alone.. so told her i'm cooking ask her to join.. so met her at causeway point and go back home together.. Cooked Japanese curry and mushroom for dinner.. Japanese curry consist of chicken thigh cut cubes, carrots, potatoes, long beans and onion.. was not bad though.. Hmz.. i am so so full now.. a satisfied meal.. lolz..

Infographics tomorrow and i have not done anything.. i don't feel like doing.. don't know what to do.. maybe i'll just scribble in class.. hahaz..

Stop here.. watching the taiwan million star.. bye bye..

Love Candida

Re: Wednesday..

2008-11-19T21:27:00.010+08:00

Home at last.. hmz.. went to library earlier on.. borrowed another 8 books again.. hahaz.. finished reading my 15th book this afternoon.. Went to MOS for dinner with my brother cos mum has Yoga today.. OMG!!! The service was super bad.. When we was in the queue, me and bro hear one of the crew member say, " where is the key? this is my favorite counter you know.. it's my counter.." with a very bitchy tone.. wow!!! sound exactly like my stupid cousin.. hahaz.. BITCHY!!! Luckily she is not the one who serve us if not i think my brother is gonna like bitch back.. Hahaz.. But the one that kinda serve us is no better.. She is so super slow in taking order, in keying the orders, in giving us the drinks at the counter, receiving the money, keeping the cash and walking.. Wat the.. she even wrote the wrong order and forgot to give us the soup.. when we walk back to inform her, she have us a whatever kind of attitude.. Write us the wrong order also.. sigh.. went asked for nuggets and then when the food arrive, it become butterfly prawns.. sigh..Come on, times are bad now, people are getting retrenched and here, you are giving such a bad service.. Never forget her name, "Nora.." Sigh.. Spoil my mood for dinner.. To me, MOS suppose to be one of the best service among the fast food.. but i doubt it now.. My brother complain about the rice burger.. " yakiniku rice burger.. He say the serving is so damn small.. even a packet of fries is more filling.. Lolz.. The food was real bad.. my Fish burger was kinda in a mess.. and PLEASE DO NOT DRINK THE CLAM CHOWDER at MOS.. it is super duper not nice.. yucks!!! me and my bro suppose to share one but i kinda gave up drinking it after a few spoon.. my brother managed to drink about 1/4 before surrendering.. See.. even bro cannot take it.. so bad..

Hmz.. saw someone reading eclipse at MOS.. oh my.. so tempting.. i want to read too.. sobb sobb.. i want i want..
School today was plain boring.. Had a entrepreneurship talk.. Damn.. it was boring.. falling asleep.. was drawing the whole time.. hahaz.. show u all.. i did it in the dark..

Did the second one in class the other day.. wasn't finish.. hahaz.. gonna do it another day during boring class.. will show again when i am done.. lolz.. Oh yahz.. going back to the school topic.. me shan and kang went to eat at north canteen halfway thru.. lolz.. Really cannot stand those talk.. Saw our lecturer while waiting for kang outside.. asked him whether we can go off earlier.. hahaz.. guess what he say.. he say that we can!!! but have to do it quietly.. one by one.. oh my.. i think he knows we cannot take it..

Damn.. it has been raining in the afternoon for days.. my slipper is wet and slippery.. oh man.. went back with Shan today.. hmz.. had our legs plus slippers soaked into the water on the uneven floor while walking to the MRT station.. sigh.. yucks!!!

funny thing.. me, shan and kang are all heading to the library after school but however, all are going to a different library.. hmz.. never been to the one at Yishun.. newly open.. i think i might visit it one of these days.. maybe ask shan whether is it big..

Tired tired.. watching the hong kong forensic show.. nice nice.. watching it for the 3rd time.. i actually have the VCD inside my cupboard.. Cantonese version.. i think that hong kong show must actually watched in cantonese version is nicer.. more original..

i think i'll stop blogging here if not i'll never stop.. Good night all.. (^_^)

Re: Tired Tired Tired..

2008-11-18T19:27:00.003+08:00

I am so tired.. hardly able to open my eyes this morning when my mum call me up.. zzzzZZZZzzz.. Eyes closing.. Not sure why i am feeling so tired and restless lately.. it is not as if i really sleep very late into the night.. hmz.. i guess sometime long holiday do me no good.. Just cannot seems to adjust back my inner clock..

Been reading alot lately.. Have read..

1. Raven's Gate -Anthony Horowitz
2. Evil Star -Anthony Horowitz
3. Nightrise -Anthony Horowitz
( Now Waiting got book 4 and 5)

4. Twilight - Stephen Mayer
5. New Moon - Stephen Mayer
(No time to buy book 3 and 4.. Sigh.,)

6. Lord Of Seduction - Paula Quinn
7. How To Treat A Lady - Karen Hawkins
8. How To Engage A Earl - Kathryn Caskie
9. Memoirs Of A Geisha - Arthur Golden
10. Shades Of Grey - Amanda Ashiey
11. Wicked Lovely
12. Ink Exchange
13. Light Bearer Daughter
14. Fairest - Gail Carson Levine

Hahaz.. read those books all in less than a month.. Cool right.. i think reading often kinda increase my reading speed and now i am reading like super fast.. I just love reading.. Hmz.. i am now reading my 15th book, " The Seduction Of His Wife" by Janet Chapman.. It was about a man who is "dead" or so everyone thinks he is. He is a windowed logger baron who took on a South American engineering project and was reported dead after a rebel attack. When he turned back up in his country Maine very much alive, his grieving family is shocked but however, his biggest shock is to discover that he is not maried to a woman he never met..

Reading sure did help to kill time when i really don;t know what to do such as when i arrive super early in school or on my way back home.. Time seems to pass fast when i am reading and i kinda like that..

Had project studio lesson today.. Did some crap drawings.. Hahaz.. don't have the mood to do draw.. got no concept.. Nothing in mind.. Sigh.. Talk to ping ping today at last.. Help her with her concepts.. Hmz.. i haven even done mine.. hahaz.. Took train with Kimi back home.. Was so happy.. The train was completely empty.. Yeah!!! How i wish everyday was like that therefore i can sit..

Don't feel like eating dinner tonight.. no appetite.. Mum just came home, packed food.. I can smell dinner from my room.. the aroma is so strong.. but not tempting.. Hmz.. bored..

I think enough of blogging le ba.. going to read more books and watch some TV..

Lastly, today is Kimez's Birthday.. Happy Birthday To you.. Hope you have a fun day ba.. All the best.. (^_^) Sorry for not being able to celebrate with you or have dinner with you guys.. Make it up to you again.. Sorry.. The cake below is specially for you..

Love Candida

Re: Monday~

2008-11-17T16:14:00.006+08:00

Hahaz.. blogging during Chris lesson again.. yeah!!! so bored.. didn't go for morning class.. was so super tired.. can't wake up.. think gonna sleep earlier next time.. sigh..

So many thing happen during the weekend and i don't know where to start.. i found out something that i think i should not cos it makes me super emotional and upset.. hmz.. i'm not in the mood to tell grandma story now.. maybe later tonight i guess..

I think i better stop blogging here before chris see me blog again.. update tonight..

to Be Continued...

Re: Yet another Monday..

2008-11-17T16:14:00.005+08:00

It another monday.. boring.. rhino lesson again.. 7 hours of painfully lectures finally over.. OMG!!! new projects to do.. sigh.. Hahaz.. I am blogging during Chris lesson again!!! Kena scolding yet again..

Anyway, today was a totally boring day with nothing much to do.. I hope time passes by fast if not i am falling asleep soon.. Hmz.. everyone commented on my stupid skirt.. "Killer Bee".. Pengz.. but somehow, i kinda like my skirt.. not sure why.. lolz..

hmz.. i think i better stop blogging now.. if not i get yet another another scolding.. I guess will blog again later when i;m home and when i am not tired.. Life is a total bore..

sigh.. don't feel like stopping.. hmz.. didn't talk to much to my mother today.. guess it was still about the "incident" yesterday.. but it was not totally my fault.. my brother push me and therefore resulted in the shattered glass and a spoil book shelve.. so why am i seem to be the only person blamed? it's sad u know.. mummy didn't even ask me whether did i cut myself.. sigh.. heart breaking.. i cut my fingers while clearing the shattered glass, my leg when the glass broke and landed on my leg as well as my foot while i sweep the glass and accidently step on a tiny winy bit of glass.. it bleeds!!! OMG.. no one care.. so sad..

Oh.. Class starting soon.. i seriously gotta stop.. if not later another remark from my oh so whatever lecturer.. oops~

Love Candida

Re: A Sianz Week..

2008-11-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

Sigh.. i duno why i feel that life is getting more and more boring.. i dunno where to go.. what else to do.. it seems like life is just about school, board game, subrinal and sleep.. i am always tired.. so tired.. hardly can keep myself awake through all those boring lessons.. oh man.. when is all this gonna stop..

I cried this afternoon.. i have no idea why.. a sudden wave of sadness wash over me.. i thought about many things.. all those stuff that happen in the past.. i felt lonely all of a sudden.. no one seems to be there for me anymore.. i'm dunno what i can do.. my heart seems to hurt.. to break.. life just stinks.. i hate it..

clean the whole house this afternoon.. vacuum.. mop.. wipe all those stupid furnitures.. and u know what, i found my bracelet.. yeah!!! i am so so happy.. i thought u was gone and lost forever.. oh my.. how i love it so much.. it meant so much to me!!! (^_^) i'm real glad that i have found it..

tired tired.. i think i'm gonna sleep soon.. there's work to be done but i really don't feel like doing.. who cares~

Love Candida

Re: Monday Again..

2008-11-10T16:17:00.005+08:00

Sianz.. Yet another monday.. Been busy with the STUPID and SICKENING 3Kingdom board game whole freaking week.. Shit!!! Went back to school on saturday with Shan and Dewi.. Hmz.. boring.. can you imagine spending saturday in school.. OMG.. sick.. Oh.. and u know what, the toilet in Level 5 is haunted.. Oh gosh!!! Me and shan went to the toilet.. then we saw the guy toilet light switch on.. and then, we kept hearing the hand dryer on and off.. after we heard the toiet door opening and closing.. It almost scare the hell out of us man.. Sucks!!! i'm not going back to school to do work on saturday.. Especially not alone..

Hmz.. i am so bored!!! i want to go home.. Board game not complete yet.. sad sad..

Last week is definitely not my week.. lost quite a few things.. my lovely bracelet.. sigh.. been wearing it for almost 5 years.. great sentimental value.. *sobb sobb* .. i lost my phone back cover as well.. can u imagine it.. i also don't know how it gone missing.. so now i'm like using a damn phone without the cover with the battery expose.. pathetic..

Not in the mood for anything.. i'm sorry to those whom i have flare my stupid temper at, to those whom i have not talked to for some time, to those that talk to me and i kinda lost my patient, to those whom i want to care yet have no time to, to those whom i actually have to accompany yet end up did not.. I am truly sorry.. I'm really didn't mean it.. i am just not myself.. and i am tired.. sick with all the things that is happening..

Got to go back to lesson.. Will blog again soon if i feel better ba..

Love Candida

Re: In class!!!

2008-11-03T18:10:00.008+08:00

hahaz.. enduring till school end.. OMG!!! i am so tired.. got so much things to do yet time seems to be getting lesser again.. boring!!! i need to finish up the board game mahjong tiles as well as the stand.. and can u believe it, 140 tiles!!! 6 stands.. can u imagine how much time i have to fork out not mentioning about the money.. damn!!! it's not as if they pay us alot.. and it is not as if the game set is manufactured, we can get a set each.. sigh.. they think we're free labour?? i think we worth much more..

Hmz.. lesson!!! lecture for a whole day.. i almost faint!!! having rhino lesson now.. my lecture reading what i am typing.. hmz.. no privacy!!! lolz.. anyway, school is getting busier.. no more time for other things.. so sad.. but what to do.. no choice..

AHHH!! Frantic.. deadline is coming soon.. mid crit, boardgame and studio.. oh my.. God.. pls help me..

Shan has left.. went for her basic theory.. hmz.. all the best.. good luck.. i hope she pass..

hmz.. lesson gonna start le.. oops!!! got to go.. will blog again soon..

Love Candida..

Re: School again!!!

2008-10-28T18:18:00.005+08:00

After a long weekend break.. school seems even more boring and tiring.. I am so so BORED.. OMG.. i almost fell asleep during the first lesson.. it was kinda boring.. "user interface".. second half of the lesson was funny though.. we did some thing similar to product matrix or in another word mapping..

Hahaz.. all look like WANTED picture.. so funny.. hmz.. did something about $money$ and the time line which defines the trend thingy.. sound profound right?? lolz..

Today studio lesson was interrupted by people from the industrial.. A fold able bike design competition.. Woo.. the people from the industrial actually show us a few examples.. It was kinda cool but i guess that i'm not gonna participate.. Don't really have a interest in bike.. let alone design.. What if the person ride and fall and break his leg.. Oh my..

Hmz.. still don't really have a idea for what i want to do for studio.. Vacuum cleaner for OSIM.. i wonder.. it has to be better than the one which exist.. how?? things seems to get more complicating each semester.. i hope that i can cope and everything will be well enough and i can then graduate with flying colours.. hahaz..

Sitting here at coffee bean waiting.. slacking and rotting.. still got to do the business report.. looking forward to tomorrow.. "No School"!!! but i still got to go Novena early morning to take pictured for the info-graphic.. at times i just don't understand why must we study the VC topic.. i am an industrial designer for christ sake..

Love Candy

Re: A short short day..

2008-10-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

Today class is kinda short.. start at 1pm and end around 2.50pm.. i think for the weeks to come, wednesday will be one of the good days..

Sigh.. the internet seem to have problems.. Tried a few time to upload pics onto friendster but keep hang.. sad sad..

There few days seems to be tired.. keep sleeping but still not enough.. omg.. why??

There are so many things that i want to know.. want to understand.. want to venture to find out.. but there are always limitation.. there are things which i am afraid to know.. and afraid that i cannot take it if i ever knew.. Your heart desire something yet it is afraid to accept.. wanting something so desperately yet not have the courage to take.. why is life so confusing.. why can't there just be a simple yes and no.. simple black and white.. without so much to think, to influence.. Sigh..

Let's hope tml will be a better day.. for me.. for everyone..

Love Candida

Re: School Reopen Day 1

2008-10-13T21:31:00.002+08:00

Hahaz.. school started.. today is the first day of school.. kinda boring though.. 6 hours of lecture.. i almost faint.. So tired.. like not enough sleep.. guess it takes time to tune my internal alarm clock back to normal time..

Lecture was boring.. esp the first three.. not that i don't like the lecturer.. but it's just that when he start to talk, it seems to be like a lullaby.. makes me so sleepy.. nothing much has change though.. classmates are still kinda the same.. just that a few of them have other modules to attend and won't be in some of the classes.. sad..

sigh.. dunno what i want to write.. i am so so tired.. but i kinda enjoy my day though.. school was alright.. and i am kinda glad that it started.. (^_^)

Love Candida

Re: Boring.. Endure till another break..

2008-10-12T22:54:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! Holiday seems to pass so fast.. like in a blink of eyes, school is starting soon.. I guess gonna endure another 3 months before another break.. Counting down the days.. Went to check my time table the other day.. Oh gosh!!! it's like super pack and full.. so many new things to learn.. sigh.. on monday i study from 9am to almost 7pm.. a whole full tiring day.. anyway, Chirs is teaching me digital modeling.. i hope it's okiez.. he never really taught me when i was in ITE.. cos i was away for attachment.. but i heard from Geraline he's not bad.. so i guess, i hope to learn more from him.. (^_^)

Been kinda busy recently.. home and out.. not really feel too well as well.. hmz.. will upload more pics when i am free ba.. went to lots of places.. ate alot.. hahaz.. put on so much weight.. took lots of pics.. bought lots of stuff.. now broke.. kinda wanna relax before school start ba..

sianz sianz.. i hope that i am able to wake up tml morning.. been sleeping super super late and waking yo super super early.. dunno how long it will take me to change the clock inside me again worz..

Anyway, i think i'll stop here ba.. need to rest le.. lolz.. can't wait to see all my friends in school tml ba.. hope everything goes well.. (^_^) will blog again tml i think if i am free ba.. need to see got any homework.. anyway, nitez nitez..

Love Candida

Re: Photos..

2008-10-01T00:51:00.003+08:00

Some photos.. Me.. Kelvin.. Randy..

Really bored.. nothing to do.. Sianz..

Re: Jason Birthday

2008-10-01T00:12:00.009+08:00

Happy Birthday Jason!!! On the 28th September..

Hmz.. late blog anyway.. Went to Jason 21st birthday party that evening.. it was fun though.. get to see many of my ITE friends.. miss them so much.. held at his condo, jeff kinda like fetch me and randy there from Khatib MRT station.. so after we reach there, kinda like wish Jason happy birthday then me and Randy saw a playground.. hahaz.. with SWING!!! so being "kids" we are kinda excited.. OMG.. rushing towards it.. so we played for awhile.. then Cong Cong called.. say he reached.. then we looked around.. oh.. he bike there.. with his gf.. i kinda forget her name.. we kinda met at the chalet a few years back.. i think her name was Ivy something.. not very sure.. but nvm.. so we talked for awhile.. then we went to take some food.. yummy yummy..

Bimbo trying to eat properly.. lolz..

anyway, we never really stay there for very long.. Jeff was in a hurry to leave.. he need to return the car to his cousin anyway.. So after dragging for some time, wait for him to cut cake before we leave.. cos kinda paiseh if we leave before that.. so just when we are about to leave, Kelvin come.. at last.. he was there quite late cos he have duty to do.. ( bcos of the F1).. it's a little bit funny.. he came, say happy birthday to Jason and left.. hahaz.. cos we all leave mahz.. then he say he don't want to stay there alone.. sad right??

So after we left the place, we went to Woodlands (causeway point) to eat.. cos Kelvin haven eat mahz.. so after arguing a few minutes then decide to go to MOS burger.. there is a notice outside that writes: "sorry we are out of buns.." hahaz.. anyway, despite the notice, we still went there to eat..

hahaz.. he very hungry.. then i trying to take the picture..

After MOS we went over the Civic Center.. Actually wanted to go to Starbuck.. but then after thinking, we went to the Mac downstair.. can sit there longer.. so we order food again.. hahaz.. eat alot right??
after those junkie food then we eat some more..

I thnk i ate alot that night.. hahaz.. non stop man!!! so after eating, we did something super disgusting.. yucks~

Don't ask me what is the component.. eee.. new mac special order.. interested anyone??

Re: Pain is all that i felt..

2008-09-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

20 years.. you have been torturing me for 20 years.. all my life.. i've tried.. i want to be the best daughter.. but you are forever not satifised.. why?? you took away everything from me.. all my happiness.. each and everytime, you broke my heart and hurt me with your words.. you never spare a thought for me.. you have never think how i feel.. why must you make me hate you more each and everyday??

i tried to do what you say.. everything that you request.. why are you still not happy with me?? you ask me not to bother about you.. and you vice versa.. sigh.. are you sure you are my mother?? where in the heaven does a mother act the way you do?? you want my respect yet things that you do doesn't earn it..

i really don't know what more to say... what more can i do.. i'm tired.. at times i just hope that you will leave me alone in peace.. my head hurts.. heart aches.. i've got nothing more to day.. it's all about you.. you blew up even the slightest things.. what more can i do?? what more can i say?? i am nothing to you.. nothing at all..

Re: New Picz...

2008-09-27T23:48:00.008+08:00

Hahaz.. i think i'm crazily bored.. sianz.. took some pics with my lappie..

I think i am just bored.. sianz.. lolz.. Life is full of shit..

Re: New hairstyle..

2008-09-27T01:44:00.004+08:00

Hahaz.. went to cut my hair yesterday.. did rebonding also worz.. woo.. find it abit weird.. but still alright ba.. sit there for almost like 5 hours.. butt pain.. sobb sobb..

hmz.. nice not?? abit weird right?? comment comment?? mummy say i look more young.. oh gosh..

Re: At last a more fulfilling day..

2008-09-27T01:20:00.003+08:00

Been rotting at home for days. Oh my tian.. anyway, went to city hall today.. it was sure people mountain people sea (ren shan ren hai).. scary.. so many police and security around.. firstly, went to see ah liou at Raffles City.. hahaz.. poor her.. stand there so long.. talk to her awhile then walk over to Suntec.. Saw yum yum.. Hahahz.. then talk to her awhile again.. lolz..

Went to Marina Square to meet Jeff and Geraline.. Saw Jeff then waited somehow quite long before Geraline appear.. At last!!! Anyway, went to walk around.. looking for Jason's present.. walk for quite awhile cos got no idea what to get.. went to the wallet shop scan through tons and tons of wallets.. saw some kinda nice though.. but must remember.. we gotta find one that will matches Jason style.. so kinda like continue searching.. searching.. we went to times also.. see the organizers.. thought of buying for him.. but.. i don't know.. Then after that we walk over to John Little.. Shop around a little.. saw some nice wallet (goldlion) too.. then we saw tie and belt.. So after thinking we decided to buy a wallet, tie plus belt..

After buying all the present, Jeff went back.. then left me and Geraline.. Went to SaSa.. saw make up.. then talk and talk.. hahaz.. Oh yahz.. the F1 racing car.. OMG.. the sound is horrible!!! loud and screeching.. Geraline and my ear drum almost break sia.. After that we decide to go eat.. walk around but don't know what to eat too.. at last decided to go Raffles City food court.. everywhere is so crowded.. Ate pepper lunch.. woo.. nice nice.. after that we eat dessert.. Almond jelly.. woo.. veri nice.. hahaz..

Met up with ah liou and yum yum to go home.. walk to the MRT together.. took the train to Marina then back.. not that crowded though.. then suddenly moo moo call me.. ask me where i am.. then say he just finish class.. so say wanna meet me.. so i kinda alight at Dobhy Ghuat then meet him. He haven eat so i kinda cc him to go eat.. Carls Junior.. Oh my.. too bad i already ate.. so just drink.. after meal, we went back home.. moo moo took train with me to Woodlands then go home.. hahaz... so nice horz??

These few days has been real sianz.. everyday seems to be rotting.. School gonna start soon.. super sianz.. hope time just don't pass so fast.. want to find more things to do..!!!

Re: Mirror

2008-09-23T18:07:00.006+08:00

Went to watch that movie the day before yesterday.. OMG.. was a little scary though.. After the movie i was kinda afraid to see my own reflection in the mirror.. then i thought.. what if i move and the reflection still stays there.. smile at me... *faint* anyway, the movie was alright.. but not sure must watch thing.. the ending part was abit puzzling.. didn't know what actually happen then..

Re: Mama Mia!!

2008-09-21T16:19:00.004+08:00

Been rotting at home the past few days.. sianz.. At last went to buy my bed yesterday afternoon.. Hmz.. but onli next saturday then they will deliver over.. OMG.. gonna sleep in a shaky and rocky bed for another week.. just hope that the bed don't break and fall..

Went to watch movie last night with my brother.. Sianz.. Watched Mama Mia.. It was nice though.. Very musical.. Interesting.. Kinda Romantic.. For those who like singing and romance, it is a sure must watch movie.. The plot was simple yet kinda exciting. The songs (ABBA) that they sang was retro though but it sure brings back those memories of the past when I was still young.. Hahaz.. It was nice.. The story plot goes like this...

20 year old Sophie (Seyfried) is preparing to marry her boyfriend Sky (Cooper) at her mother's hotel on an island in Greece. She seemingly has it all -- a carefree life, a loving fiance, and happy friends -- but one thing has been missing all her life: a father.

Her only wish now is to be given away by her dad at her wedding. By reading her mother's diary she discovers that she has three possible fathers. Sophie then secretly invites all three men to the wedding in a desperate bid to discover which of them is her father before the wedding bells start to chime!

But not all goes according to plan: old loves are re-kindled, new loves are formed, and Sophie risks everything to discover the true identity of her father.

Re: Don't know what to say..

2008-09-17T22:42:00.007+08:00

today is just tired.. yawn.. sigh.. my mind is blank.. dunno what to write.. sianz..

oh yahz.. talk to ZiWei jus now.. his result still the same.. then crap abit.. he say he will buck up next semester.. better horz.. then we talk about Samuel.. sianz.. wonder how is his result sia..

hmz.. super sianz.. woke up veri early this morning.. brought my granny to check up.. waited so long.. but good news.. she's alright.. no need to go back for any more check up.. hmz.. thanks god.. then after that went to eat at tiong bahru market.. the food there don't seems to be as nice as last time le worz.. hmz.. after that my aunt drop us off at Jurong.. then walk around.. i bought a red shirt.. dunno why i bought it also.. hahaz..

then after that at causeway point when my granny buying 4D, i saw shoes!! nice shoes on sales.. hahaz.. then cannot resist.. must buy.. lolz.. then i told the lady to take the size for me to try.. then after that my granny see le also like.. then in the end i bought 2 pair.. same one.. one for her and one for me..

hahaz.. see.. go out one day buy so much things.. better stay at home more.. if not no more money.. broke le!!! tml i want to stay at home and rot..hahaz..

Love Candy

Re: 17th September 2008

2008-09-17T01:19:00.006+08:00

Hmz.. slept the whole day.. hahaz.. was in bed.. watching tv and playing game.. lolz.. so piggy.. anyway, brother bought rice for me for lunch.. and OMG... he thought i was a vegetarian.. he bought rice with veg.. one pathetic and some mushroom.. sobb sobb.. sad right.. then when i open his box of rice, wow!! so much things.. got fried fish fillet, chilli stingray and beancurd.. see.. he so bad right?? sigh.. this kind of brother..

oh.. after that i went out for dinner.. went to "Aijisen Ramen" to eat.. the one newly open at causeway point.. woo.. it was nice.. so full.. cannot finish.. i also watched the show "Money No Enough 2".. was nice.. touching.. the mother was really pitiful.. raising all her three sons up.. helping them when they are in crisis.. using up all life saving to help her sons.. and even give up her life to save Neo's daughter.. It was really sad.. when they wanted to send her to the old folks home.. it was in her death bed that the sons argument still continues.. no one knows her sadness.. no one saw her tears.. all of them only care about themselves.. no one has spare a thought for their mother.. there was a scene when she has diabetic as well as senile dilemma, her sons argue over the arrangement of who should be taking care of her and stuff.. Though in the end they all agree to have her over for a few days each week but they are treating her badly.. Mark lee made her mother sit permanently on the toilet bowl as she has difficulties and cannot control herself at times.. and Neo made her mother sleep outside the toilet.. so that people who come to their house will not see her.. Sigh..

Hmz.. i recommend you guys to watch this movie.. i think that it really touches my heart.. i feel that people nowadays have no respect for their elderly like their parents and grandparents.. come on.. your parents has sacrifice so much for you.. they help you when you are in deep shit.. the least you can do is to look after them when they really need it instead of sending them to the homes.. life is just sad.. when you look at people around you and the things that they do.. though you disagree but there is nothing much you can do or say..

Life is never perfect.. but perfect life doesn't equals to a happy life.. there are things in life which you think you need but actually don't and vice versa, there are things which you already have yet don't know how to cherish.. it is always when you lose it that you will understand the importances and life with regrets..

Love Candida

Re: Things i did when i'm bored..

2008-09-15T20:47:00.007+08:00

hahaz.. really so bored today.. went to surf the web then remember i got "photobucket".. hmz. thinking back, it was ages ago when i join.. saw some pictures that i took with my ex classmate Hanis.. hahaz.. so fun.. miss those times.. anyway, back to topic.. i kinda like check put what is new and guess what.. i can actually do some simple editing and enhancing the photo.. Kinda like photoshop.. but it's jus simpler.. anyway, show u what i did..

Sigh.. i really got nothing to do man.. wondering now should i go out tml.. hmz..

Love Candida

Re: Yet another boring day..

2008-09-15T18:38:00.004+08:00

Sianz.. been home the whole day.. had nothing much to do though.. cooked lunch for my brother.. hmz. the other day had some left over chicken rice and chicken so i kinda like fry them.. Can you imagine.. fried chicken rice with chilli, corn and egg.. hahaz.. sound funny right?? but it was alright.. not so bad..

sigh.. watched the "disaster movie".. OMG.. it was bad.. i think the whole movie sucks.. it was suppose to be lame.. i know.. but i was even far worse than lame.. it was horrible.. the "meet the spartan" was better at least.. so people out there, if you think you wanna go watch that movie on the cinema, NO!!! don't waste that kind of pathetic money.. save it man~

Suppose to meet my mother at causeway point.. sianz.. don't feel like going.. then my brother face black again.. sigh.. as always.. don't care!!!

Re: OMG~

2008-09-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

Oh my god.. my brother broke my bed.. hahaz.. he sat on the middle and suddenly i hear a loud "crack" sound and suddenly the bed kinda like broke a little half.. shitty.. then i complain to mummy.. humph.. then she say i can buy another new bed.. yeah!!! sianz lorz.. not my bed when i go up got sound.. stupid.. then jus not in the room.. i overheard my mother say.. " be careful.. don't break my bed also.." hahahaz.. so funny lorz..

hmz.. went to my grandmama house today.. help her with some stuff... then stayed over till dinner worz.. had lots and lots of food.. yummy yummy..

Lazy to blog more le.. will blog again if i feel like it ba.. Nitez..

Love Candida

Re: Get The Heck Out Of My Life!!!

2008-09-13T16:48:00.002+08:00

I hate you.. i really really do.. it's always you who get me into trouble.. it's always you who makes things seems my fault.. i wish that there isn't you at all.. YOU ARE SO SARCASTIC EVEN WHEN I HELP YOU!!! why? WTF.. i don't owe you anything.. so get out of my life.. i don't want to be related to you!!!

Sigh.. quarrel with my freaking brother today.. help him fold the clothing (cos is his job) then i told him.. wow~ he wear so many clothes.. almost all is his shirt.. then he answer me like "so"~ whatever.. what the.. i was so angry.. but still tell him.. "you are suppose to say thank you instead of so" then he was like "fine! thank you lahz!" i was so so piss off.. ahhhhhh....!!!!!!!!!! then after that my mother shout from the kitchen.. scold me! what the heck.. i didn't do any shit.. and i'm the only one who gotten scolding.. BIAS!!! if you bloody love you son so much then next time ask him to do what u want him to do for you.. don't ever ask me cos i am not gonna do it anymore.. i am your daughter not your maid!!! now i know what is like mother like son.. both are the same.. not appreciative.. not helpful.. all so sarcastic.. humph..

i am so bored.. i want to go out.. but i'm lazy.. sianz.. jus saw kang kang blog.. the chalet entry.. hahaz.. so cute the ending video.. anyway, thanks you guys for inviting me.. it was fun.. (^_^)

Will blog again.. ~

I Don't Know..

2007-01-31T18:10:00.000+08:00

Sometime in life, we experience something that we don't understand.. Things that we learn in school.. Things that happen to others.. We are curious to know yet will we ever get the answer?? People often says that bitter comes before every sweet embrace but is that a process?? Can it be always sweet yet never bitter?? When you fall you have to stand up.. To accept the failure in life but is it true?? Will standing up ever help??

There are so many problems to life however there seems to be less solution.. Sometime i ask myself.. What actually matter most in life?? Family? Studies? Money? Jobs? Friends? Love? Material? Etc...

My emotions have been giving me much problems lately.. I seems to be more emotional towards things that i can see and to those that i can't.. Why? I seems to care more than i usually do.. I seems to bother about things that i don't in the past.. Is this a part of growing up??

Do i really wanna grow up? I've got no idea at all.. Adulthood seems so big a responsibility.. Will i be able to shoulder it?? What i can say is that.. I don't know..

Re: 2nd last day in office.. (14-12-2006)

2006-12-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

Bleah =P

*Twist* Say cheese..

So big head..

Hahaz..

Looking up into the clouds.. Hahaz..

Me.. me.. me..

Hihi to all.. Lolx..

yeah!! 2 more days to go before i am free.. Been waiting for this days since i dunno when.. anyway, today i've got lots to do.. need to pack and file the documents.. need to save soft copy for my supervisor.. sianz.. so many many things to do.. yet it seems like i've stil got spare time to blog.. chat.. do rubbish.. hahaz.. anyway, it's like 5.41pm already and i'm like suppose to finish work at 5pm.. what am i stil doing in the office?? Shit!! *sigh* no choice.. gotta try finish as much as i can if not tml gonna suffer le.. Hmz..

uncle andy is sure a funny man.. hahaz.. he and his lame joke really can make u laugh till pant drop.. not bcos the joke is funny.. bcos when u see he u cannot imagine it's him who say those lame things.. lolx..

My dear hanas is taking her temperature every like 2 hours.. think she's really falling sick.. "cheeko" go see a doctor lahz.. dun like tt.. her hands are like ice.. cold sia!!! Oh.. her temperature is 36.43 degree.. hahaz.. no fever.. so.. continue do your work.. lolx.. take care know sayang.. you've been looking pale these days..

Hmz.. i wanna go home!! i wan to.. sigh.. think i'll stop blogging here now.. quickly do my work then go go home.. hahaz.. i misss my home~ muackiez

Love Candy

Re: My Friend in STRESS MODE..

2006-12-14T17:02:00.000+08:00

Stress sia.. Ahh!!!

Watcha doing gal??

See.. her lousy lappy top..

Slack sia..

Hmz.. Stop starring lahz..

So engross..

Hahz.. she so stress sia.. falling sick oso.. sigh.. poor thing.. *Faster do your work lahz if not later you cannot finish then die sia.. *

Re: Office.. So Bored..

2006-12-13T15:03:00.000+08:00

See.. Dc again.. need to reconnect..

It's really so so so so bored!!!

My Feet.. Too bored le.. Hahaz..

My Lappy Top.. Lolx.. Can see.. msn woz..

Talking on the phone worz.. *Hello?*

Kiss? *Muackiez*

Nothing better to do in the office.. Take picture..

Hahaz.. i've got too much time but not sure how to use it.. So i took lots picture of the boliao me.. Hmz.. I did do my work okiez.. don't misunderstood.. Jus that i kinda have some free time to do crappy stuff.. Lolx.. 2 more days to freedom!!! YEah man.. That's the way it should be..

Love Candy

Re: My Supervisor Eat Snake..

2006-12-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

*Peep* See what ya doing..

Hor.. Never work play game man.. Wait i tell boss..

See.. He play FreeCell.. sianz.. This kind of game he oso play..

Hahaz.. See.. My supervisor never do work.. play game sia.. Always ask me to do then he play game.. eee.. yucks..

Sigh.. see lahz.. always ask me to do my work.. then he sit around playing games.. editing picture using paint.. OMG!! what is this man.. sometime i nthink my supervisor wat too much snake.. he can talk whole day on the phone regarding badminton.. sianz.. Is that right.. *i wonder* I cannot stand him already..

Love Candy

Re: Star Hanas & Cat Video!!!

2006-12-11T09:39:00.000+08:00

Re: 2 Crazy Ah Ma In The Lose!!!

2006-12-11T08:39:00.000+08:00

What Ya Starring At Huh??

Singapore Next
Top Model..

"Hanus & Cat" Lolx..

Pretty Pretty..

Oops.. Oh My..

Shh.. Don't Tell Anyone We're Here..

Kiss Kiss.. Muackz..

Re: Pics I Take @ Office Worz..

2006-12-08T17:46:00.000+08:00

My second day in office

Camera & Action!!!

Big Head!!!

~Blurr Sotong~

*Smile*

Wear Specs.. *Act Innocent Only*

Starring!!!

Songs Intro ~ Nice!!

2006-12-08T12:36:00.000+08:00

梁山伯與朱麗葉

曹:我的心想唱首歌給妳聽
歌詞是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我沒有勇氣對妳說一句我愛你

卓:為什麼你還是不言不語
難道你不懂我的心
不管你用什麼方式表明我會對你說我願意

曹:千言萬語裏只有一句話能表白我的心

卓:千言萬語裏只要一句話就

合:能夠讓我們相偎相依

曹:我愛你妳是我的茱麗葉(卓:茱麗葉)
我願意變成妳的梁山伯

合:幸福的每一天浪漫的每一夜

卓:把愛不放開

曹:因為Ｉ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｙｏｕ

卓:我愛你你是我的羅密歐(曹:羅密歐)
我願意變成你的祝英台

合:幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜美
麗的愛情祝福著　未來

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最近

你最近不说话怎么了为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早已就结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

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别说我的眼泪你无所谓

一个人在这个夜里
孤单得难以入睡
真的想找个人来陪
不愿意一个人喝醉
醉了以后就会流泪
数着你给的伤悲
为什么你总让我憔悴
别说我的眼睛你无所谓

看我流泪你头也不回
哭过了泪干了心变成灰
我想要的美你还不想给
伤了的我的心怎去面对
爱给了你我不后悔
只希望你给我一次机会
让我去追让我去飞
毕竟爱过的心需要安慰
需要你安慰

喔.....
如果说...拥有你是上天对我的宽容~
那又何必...开这样的玩笑~
当你..找到幸福的哪天..
请你不要忘记..
有一个人..永远爱着你~~

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爱情

听窗外的雨
它滴滴嗒嗒打在窗口象我思绪
反覆的把你想念叫做爱情
我好想证明从不在一起
我还是不能停止想你

我对着玻璃
轻轻的吐气再用手指写着爱你
假想是一节简讯叫做爱情
不需要证明对白很干净
我唯一想说只有我爱你

咖啡湾外面的雨境
我们一起向前进
所有画面都很熟悉
我打开口袋里的记忆
充满的都是你
平凡又显得神奇

我喜欢说爱我的你
一样的对着玻璃
用呼吸吹醒平淡的水气
苦了也变得多麽甜蜜
再有蓝的天气
借着雨点说爱你

看窗外的你
拥抱着爱情我们一起继续前进
听风中的歌
谱写歌颂爱情
你我在和音　
对白很清晰
会是个美丽的结局

依旧是爱情
你让我欢喜让我执i着让我安静
不必有太多理由叫做爱情
因我只要你
对白很干净
我唯一会说只有我爱你

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心肝宝贝

我我为你付出所有的
我的担心我的甜蜜我的呼吸

你的笑绝对的神奇
你的哭绝对的可惜
因为你让我明白生命的真谛

可知道你的不小心
会让我伤心一辈子
我是愿意为了你今生永不渝

为我你要好好自己保护自己
慢慢的学习不要乾焦急
一步一步走出每一个谷底坚定不移

为我你要好好自己保重身体
在每一段的路总会一身污泥
心肝宝贝不要怀疑
最爱就是你

你你是我一生的唯一
你的声音你的鼓励我的意义

可知道你的不小心
会让我伤心一辈子
我是愿意为了你今生永不渝

为我你要好好自己保护自己
慢慢的学习不要乾焦急
一步一步走出每一个谷底坚定不移

为我你要好好自己保重身体
在每一段的路总会一身污泥
心肝宝贝不要怀疑
最爱就是你

如果没好好的身体
你我怎能永远在一起
外面的风和雨已不是问题

为我你要好好自己保护自己
慢慢的学习不要乾焦急
一步一步走出每一个谷底坚定不移

为我你要好好自己保重身体
在每一段的路总会一身污泥
心肝宝贝不要怀疑
最爱就是你