BabyCandelicious

Thursday, May 19, 2011

It has been a long since the last time I've last posted..
It was suppose to be..
A new year.. A new beginning.. A new hope...
However, it has been halfway through into the year..
Many things have happen.. good and bad..
It makes me wonder at times.. what actually is good and what is bad..
What is right and what's wrong..

In life.. we are always faced with lots of crossroad which we have to choose..
The so called right path to take.. but what is really right??
our perception? or how others perceive us?
for example; i could say and think that what i did was right..
but on the other hand.. someone else might think that i am wrong..
So.. at the end of the day.. who is right? who should i follow? what should i do?
so many questions.. is there ever a definite answer?
i seriously doubt it..

Come to think of it..
No one is perfect..
Everyone makes mistakes..
It depends on whether one stays being always wrong
or one would repent on the wrong they did..

People often say..
Follow your heart..
Follow your soul..
Follow you guts..
But.. what if.. they are leading you to another mistake?
What if.. that is not the right path to take?

Life is just so unpredictable..
You can never guess what will happen at the next moment...
You can never know who you are gonna meet..
At times.. things just come and go..
In a split second, all would change..
And we could only keep our fingers cross and hope for the best..

why do we always want things..
that we know doesn't belong to us from the start?
why did we yearn for things that are always so hard to get..
Why in the hell do we torture ourselves with the misery that we know would come by..
why did we jump into the pit hole that we already saw miles away..

What i can say now is..
Love makes us do silly things..

A Never Ending Love

Monday, January 25, 2010

It's been a long and tiring day..
though i did not go to school but still i did my work at home..

My heart hurts..
Like someone is gripping it hard..
Painfully hard..
Your words are like sharp knives..
Pierce through my heart..
I feel the pain..

i dunno what more to say..
i'm tired..

A Never Ending Love

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Happy new year..
been a long time since u have blog..
life have been real busy..
school.. work.. family.. boyfriend..
so many many things yet so little time..

A new year..
A new beginning..
New hope..

I hope that this year would be a great year..
Graduating soon..
Hope to get better results..
Hope to widen my circle of friends..
Hope to have more time to spend with my family and bf..
Hope to maybe find a part time job so that i have money..
Hope to save up..
Hope to be a better person..
Hope to not flare up easily..
there is so many things that i hope for and i will try my best effort to fulfilled it..

Been really lazy lately..
dont have da drive to do my work..
just feel like lazing around..
NO! i got to settle down..
i got to start doing my work..
it's final already..
it's now or never..
i will do my best..
i promise!

last year was fruitful..
went to bangkok in the mid with my parents and bf..
then went cruise with my family..
then went to hong kong with my bf and his aunts..
spent quite alot of money..
sigh.. kinda broke now..
at times how i wish money grow on trees..
so we can just be gardeners..
grow them with love and care..
and therefore i will have money!
hahahz.. dreaming~

hmz.. i am so bored now..
dear is not around..
went gossiping with his mates..
boring!
i am missing him..
but.. oh yahz..
my other new year resolution is..
not to be too hard on him..
have to try not to be paranoid..

Lastly.. i hope that our love is strong for whatever that is coming for us in 2010..
i love you dear..
what have happen in the past is already behind us..
we should treasure each other now and always..
hope that our love will grow stronger..

Love Candida

A Never Ending Love

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

i am not sure why am i feeling this way.. there seems to be a hurting feeling somewhere.. a certain pain that i cannot identify.. life seems to always make fun of us.. that we hope for will never come.. but once the situation change and u kinda detest it, it will come knocking on your door..

I used to hate you not going out.. always staying at home.. not being able to accompany me.. but now.. why does things seems to be different?? why am i feeling the other way round.. i don't want you to always stay out late.. i don't like it when you go out with others to the wee hours.. i don't want to always call you and you not answer.. i hate those feelings.. i know that and understand about those things that u say to me.. and i do understand that you seems to be his only few friends in singapore.. but.. at times.. i just can't take it.. for christ sake.. u are my bf.. and i need you more than anyone else.. but at times, the feeling that you gave me.. it seems like i am just anyone..

i need you.. there are already so much struggle in life and yet.. i feel all alone at times.. i feel empty.. i feel the pain..

i am wondering.. hoping.. that you will be home later like what you said.. and not somewhere else..

all i can now is that we have been thru so much to be together.. i do treasure.. i love you.. i don't want to quarrel.. to argue.. i'm sorry if i did said anything wrong.. but i hope you know how i feel too.. ("v")

Love Candy

A Never Ending Love

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

hmz.. been like so busy lately.. school.. school and school.. there are like only one project and a furniture design competition which i am still not sure whether i should participate.. currently doing ECO design.. OMG! damn.. it's hard.. firstly.. i am not that kind of "ECO" person.. i mean.. we as designer are people who uses tons and tons of paper.. we are the culprit who uses so much electricity powering our computers and laptops to render images.. who are we to talk about ECO.. lolz.. but nevertheless, it's a project.. an assignment.. a must to do..

been cracking my brain hard and out, killing all my brain cells to come out with ideas and concept.. it seems to really take ages.. many often perceive that ECO means solar panel.. using the sun's energy and etc.. but that is not all.. and moreover, our "brief" is kind of restricted to having nothing to do with water (hydro), solar (sun), wind (turbine), heat, kinetic and etc.. worse still, we are advised not to do things such as toilet sink.. basin or things such as craft based product.. Can you imagine it? it's real tough! i have like absolutely no idea what to do.. feel stress.. no ideas seems to be generating.. and my brain cells are dying at a super fast rate..
there's design clinic today.. gotta pin all my crappy design on the "window" for "sharing". Sigh.. i drew quite a few things though.. but however, i find that none is strong and most are real crap.. lolz.. anyway, presented and lecturers are like discussing each and everyone of our concept.. and i am in the same room now typing this.. hahaz.. scare! i was real nervous just now during the presentation.. guess kinda rusty.. not been like presenting for quite a long time.. i guess it's like back to square one.. gotta try hard again!

hmz.. i miss my dear.. he's been working like 1pm-10pm this week.. so never really talk much to him.. cos by the time he reached home and bathe, i am feeling like so so tired.. so we kinda like just talk for awhile.. but it's okiez.. friday coming soon.. and i am able to see him again! (^_^) anyway, he has been real nice.. kinda helping me think hard for ideas.. though he's not really good at it but i am real touched! thanks dear.. you've been real nice.. muackz.. i really appreciate your help.. as time and again you did help me spark that idea.. lolz..
i am so so tired! i'm like missing my dear.. my brain cells are dying.. i've got no life.. there is no "strong" concept for my ECO project.. oh man.. how?? how am i gonna survive?

anyway, i've got some pics taken some time ago to upload.. went to eat with dear and bro at bugis.. not sure what the name of the shop.. but it's selling ramian.. nice nice..

sigh.. gotta go now.. tired.. lazy to continue typing.. FOOD! yippie...

Love Candida

A Never Ending Love

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Happy Birthday Mummy..

Went to New York New York to celebrate mummy's birthday.. Yippiee..

Meat Platter for 2

Seafood Platter for 2

Beef for 2 ( ordered 2 of this...)

Hahaz.. a long string of food!!!

PRESENT OPENING TIME!!!!

My present to mummy..

Wesley present.. Slimming cream.. lolz. ( look at mummy's expression..)

Chatlton present.. flowers!!!

Walton heart to mummy..

Woo.. look.. what's behind u..

Birthday Cake plus carol singer.. hahaz!!!

Clap clap.. Sing sing..

Mummy so happy!!! (Awww...)

Make a wish and blow ya candle..

Cake cutting..

Hazelnut chocolate cake.. from Prima Deli.. Specially requested from mummy.. cos it's not too sweet.. kekekz..

Daddy & Mummy.. ( so sweet..)

All da kids plus tita!!!

Charlton attacking his coffee float.. (so big mug.. later tonight cannot sleep..)

Me and Wesley..

Wesley scary face!!!

hmz.. i think i shall stop blogging here.. cos blogger seems to be a little lag today.. maybe will upload more tml.. (^_^) lastly.. happy birthday mum once again!!!

Love Candida

A Never Ending Love

a heart breaking feeling.. i don't know why am i feeling this way.. i believe what u told me.. i really do.. i know it's just some innocent drinking with ya boss and colleagues.. but.. i just don't feel good.. i dislike it.. maybe.. i just don't trust myself.. maybe i just don't have the belief in myself.. i know that at times my short tempered might be hard on you too.. like earlier on you suddenly told me that ya gonna go Clark Quey with ya boss and all to drink and i kinda flare a little.. sigh.. i am not disapproving you to go.. it's just like i said.. i am not sure of myself.. i am not sure where do i really stand.. what i really am..

dear.. i know that you and i have kinda gone through quite alot.. from the past till now.. at times.. i am also afraid that the past might come back into the present or even the future to haunt the relationship.. there are some feelings deep within that words can never be able to express.. there are unknown fears around that you would know about until you felt them..

i am now confused.. not sure what the heck i am typing about.. maybe i am just babbling.. wanting to vent that frustrated on something..

i hope you enjoy your night out.. take care.. i miss you..

Love Candida

A Never Ending Love